Happy 1st anniversary my Love (in another 2 days)

We started our relationship over the phone on the 12th April 2015. A day that had changed both our statuses to available into attached. Since we have been one year being attached to one another, we had been trained to work as a team instead of thinking as an individual.

Yesterday, Albert brought me for a Pet Expo, it was my 1st time there, the Expo will only be on for 3 days.  I must so remember to accompany him to his favourite mall, the Amcrop Mall. I'm sure I will love it there. Anyway after walking around Pet Expo and looking at tags for my cat's in which I was just window shopping for them, seems like I can't find the perfect one within my budget.

 We met up with Jimmy and Louanna, our ibridge camp friends, that had made time to meet up for us. Had Sushi King with them for lunch, had a chat with them and managed to meet their dog Oreo. I also managed to see from a far, a former friend who left in speed, I'm not sure if they left not knowing I'm there or just didn't want to meet me. Anyway, let me put it that they didn't know I'm there. So that I will not habour in any negative feelings. It seems like the human me, felt a little bit disappointing. But let it be a bygone.

I certainly enjoyed walking around in Pet Expo with my dear. Having to see that even our pets are allowed to try on the food before we purchased them. To see if the Pet really love the food. They even sell trolley for pets. I felt that, the pet expo is for people to pamper their pets with expensive goods that are luxury and not needs. There are so many varieties of stuff, more common for dogs. I manage to see those cats that are in competition. Many Spinx and other breeds as well. All pedigree, in different breeds, shapes, ages and sizes. Love those huge cats. I saw many of Shalom's family there (same colour) lolz. Got some freebies and free magazines as well. Good enough for a RM5 ticket. Albert also did a questionnaire and get a freebie for shalom, fina and sweetie. I may bring Shalom along for the next Pet Expo, God willing if Shalom will not be too travel unhappy.

We went for Cafe Cafe, for dinner to celebrate our 1st anniversary of courtship. I love the food but the serving is a bit too huge for my eating, and the food is a bit too pricey for me. For a nice date like this, I'm thankful that Albert had taken the initiative to bring me for a good four course meal. I take comfort in the food and also the ambiance. It was like candle light dinner, but the difference is that there are many others in the Cafe. We got to witness one proposal just a few tables away. Such a beautiful sight. Let me thought about how mine will be like? up to my dear to be creative. ( muahahahah) I just wait and see. This is why being a girl is blessed. XD We sealed our night out with a kiss. Knowing that we will love each other for the longest time. I'm thankful to God that He has brought us so far, although we had disobeyed many occasions but still He was there kept caring and taking care of us. Thank You Father God.

I will post the pictures in later as the pictures are still either in Albert's phone or in my phone. A little difficult for me to post in now.





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Ecclesiastes

It is the 1st week of April. I'm finally reading the book Ecclesiastes. My eyes stop in the last few verses of Chapter 1 today.

16 I communed with mine own heart, saying, Lo, I am come to great estate, and have gotten more wisdom than all they that have been before me in Jerusalem: yea, my heart had great experience of wisdom and knowledge.

17 And I gave my heart to know wisdom, and to know madness and folly: I perceived that this also is vexation of spirit.

18 For in much wisdom is much grief: and he that increaseth knowledge increaseth sorrow.

What does this really mean? I searched about it today, asked God to teach me about it .

I searched online commentary and read about this 

"Yet this Searcher kept on, despite the increasing frustration that the more he knew the more he knew he did not know. At the close of his life, Isaac Newton said, "I have been paddling in the shallows of a great ocean of knowledge." He too felt the frustration of not being able to encompass more". Ray Stedman

This book is written when Solomon has a corrected mind from his past wrong doings.
http://www.raystedman.org/old-testament/ecclesiastes/the-search-for-meaning

In Conclusion, I felt that no matter how much we know about life, there are still things that we do not exactly know fully, so don't stop learning from God and don't feel bad if you don't know a lot of things.  

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Prostitutes? Red Light District? Drugs?

Coming from a christian family, I have often been taught to be away from all those. It is often very disapproval if someone is into something like this, my family will start talking about so and so...don't be like him etc. It is very wrong to be doing things like that.

Today, I had a different perspective about them (prostitutes), knowing the reason behind it, brings me to shame about what they needed to go through not by their own actions or own accord but being tricked into it. I read the book from page 1 to the end today, and I realized that I wouldn't judge them so much from yesteryear. I know that some aren't trick into it, but most of them, at least those I read of, are being tricked into being prosty.  " Slave Girl" was the book that I read today.

This book was a story about a lady, she had been sexually and brutally abused by her own dad when she was a kid. She on her own accord went to Amsterdam for a job when she was 19, but her story was tragic, she didn't know that she was being tricked by a pimp. Her whole life story was brutal, tragic and had cost her a lot of hatred towards those who goes to "Red Light Districts". The reason why she didn't even trust policeman was because some of them was bribe by those pimps.

So many stories are share in 1 person's point of view, I'm not suprised that she in the end chose to be a lesbian, probably she did not really trust any man anymore, In the storybook, I found out that, her marriage life wasn't that good in the 1st few years due to her past. She was having a terribly hard time. I mean, that doesn't mean that it is okay that she became a lesbian. For me what is wrong, it is wrong.

For example, she found it so difficult to break the habit of taking more drugs, even after being safe from the slavery of being a sex slave, she went into the business of being a pimp herself for other girls. She did it for just awhile under the influence from another girl she loved. ( not the lady she married). Then finally after being in jail for awhile and came out of it, she married legally with another lady. If only a christian is there to tell her about Jesus.

I have heard about stories about Amsterdam having drug dealers etc, I have heard of them, but I have not ever read them in detailed before, this book is really an eye opener, if it wasn't for my cousin from Singapore that pass down the book for us to read, I wouldn't have read it. This book title was appealing to me, I'm always a fan of reading real life stories.

To sum up this book, it is scary, reading it from a 1st hand survivor. I will never look at prosty the way I look at them time next time. I will be more caring towards them and not ill treat them in anyway. Most of them go through "a hell on earth". Sigh. They are sinful, aren't we too? If they repent and have a clean slate, aren't we going to accept them? Sometimes, it is not really them who started it. Evil man or women had took them into this whole picture, maybe some was kidnapped and was human trafficked.


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Seoul Trip 8th -12th March

Greeted with Shalom look alike in the house we staying

Finally I managed to step foot into Korea. Culturally I felt that I couldn't find any church, if makes me wonder where all my love for Korea went to. Until one day when I was travelling towards gyeongbokgong there was a preacher in his loud voice proclaiming a gospel in Hangul. I'm in awe, I"m like going back into olden time preacher where they speak in the subways. At least I got to see him doing that. Nobody actually stop to listen, as everyone is busy walking and heading to their destination, (fast pace life). I did not go towards him to say hi, as my sisters were walking quickly and I did not want to stop them. I shall do it the next time I go to Korea. I will make sure I know where the churches are with Soomin's help.

in Alive Museum, a very must for me in Korea. 

So this is the 1st time me and sisters get together and go for a trip out of Malaysia. I have been to Hanoi with Samantha before but not with Desiree and Samantha at the same time. It was a time for bonding and to know each others weaknesses and strengths. I'm thankful that we could contemplate each other and travel together. For me it is quite difficult to look at the train lines. Sam told me that there are more train lines in Japan than Korea. So I guess I should be thankful and just humbly learn how to go to places. I learn not to rely on others in this trip as well. Sometimes my sister may want to rest and ask where to go to.

1st meal in korea, Korean beef BBQ

On the 1st night Sam treated us with a BBQ beef in one of the local shops situated in Sin Seol-dong, a walk away from where we sleep in. Going to MyeongDong actually made me open my eyes to many many creative face and body products. I'm not really a fan of Korean face product, as I'm more of a Japanese face product fan. I guess it was no harm trying if it in made from herbs or stuff like that. I didn't dare to purchase anything besides just looking at their creativity in presenting and packaging their products. I do love Korea in general but prefer going travelling and exploring new things apart from just shopping. I guess the ultimate motive to shop there is just to get some souvenirs for friends and family.

In this trip, I felt that I have learnt to budget and to spend wisely, in fact I manage to have  20k won left in my pocket. I learn that I can get anywhere conveniently by using the Korail. As long as I do my research and chat with people on trip advisor. I would certainly stay in airbnb in my next trip or in any place around the world. Airbnb is a must for me. =) I guess staying in someones home is fun.




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Psalms

Was reading through many Psalms since end of last year. Realized something that I didn't really take note. Not all the Psalms is by David. I realized I did not dig deep enough in my 20 years in life... Some chapter in Psalms has different psalmist. I didn't know Moses wrote as well, it is something that I realized today when pondering Psalms 90. I didn't even know there is someone by the name of Ethan in the bible, good name for babies aye (winks), he is one of  psalmist for psalms 89. Verse one was made into a song, I will sing of the mercies of the Lord forever; with my mouth will I make known; your faithfulness through all generation.

Felt very blessed after reading psalms 104. It is a timeline of almost everything that God did for His people from the torah. I'm heading out to meet up with a sister in christ now. It has been awhile since we last meet up =).

Feeling a little more fruitful this 2 days. =) Thanking God for directing my days.



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Sold into Marriage by Sean Boyne

Just finished a book today, a real life story about a 16 year old marrying an old man 60 years of age. This incident took place in Ireland in the 1970s. Tragic how the father and husband treated her in torment. These stories make be feel very blessed to be in a generation or in the midst of people that still respects women, and women can voice up their own opinions more freely than those from the book.

Even the priest were wavered that cause the girl to give up faith instead of lean unto God. She couldn't trust people anymore after that incident. Father and husband was supposedly a protector treated her like a procession. She was terribly beating and ill treated by both her husband and father. Her mother could not do anything as she was also weak in her family and severely mistreated by her husband. Bruised all the time.Mentally and verbal abused as well. As I read along, I could feel the hatred and anguish that was within her, yet her hope to move on to survive was still there. To run away was her only hope that time.

Being caught in the middle of mix feelings when each terrible individual that made her life a misery, she did not receive any "sorry" from her dad. She did a lot of mistakes along the way though. I really do hope that she will come to know the Lord before she passed away. Such things happened to her, I salute that she was able to go through the hard knocks of life. I wouldn't be able to live up to that and I may had been killed along the way. In my mind right now is how could something so terrible happened to a young girl? sometimes things may look prestige on the outside as evil people wear a "good person" mask and walk around.

http://www.obrien.ie/sold-into-marriage


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Chinese New Year 2016

I had made plans for Chinese New Year not knowing that sometimes plans just do not go the way it wanted. This year for me is a more fruitful time at home. We had our 1st photo shoot as a family by our one and only professional photographer at home, my eldest sister.

I realized that I have "out grown" of going out with friends for the New Year. I seem to want to spend more time at home this year. Signs of growing up? After going for 1 session of visitation with a friend, I needed some time to recover from the visitation...it seem like it zaps away my energy. When I needed to go to another house for another visitation, I needed to pull myself to meet up, leaving my family at home. I'm so unlike yesteryear this year. Maybe growing up had made me feel more chores to work on at home and resting at home is like a bliss after doing house work and helping mum lessen her burden.
I felt that I have also outgrown angpows, I do not really think much about opening the packets. Maybe I just want to be thankful and be content about any amount given. They blessed me with finance, everything is from the Lord, I know. 7979, I will need to be giving them as it has been 1 year since I made the half year pledges. Pray that I will have sufficient this time for the Taiwan Earthquake for 7979.

Did not manage to meet up with groups of friends this year, unlike last year.  2 groups had asked me to go out on the same night. And a few friends had messaged me on 2 and 3rd day for reunion, but I couldn't make time for them this year. I thought 1 week is a good time for leisure for me, seems like my holiday plans did not run smoothly this year. Really wanted to make time to have reading therapy. I on't think money is the factor, it is just the energy being zap out very quickly, as I needed more me time this year.

Younger sister also crave to have a time together with me, I have lacked it for many months now. I know that , so i'm trying my best to make time alone for her. I guess I can't do it so often anymore aye? I can never have best of both worlds anymore.

This year too shalom is in his phase of sadness, peeing anywhere he likes. So our decision was to allow him to go out more often. Had a quite of an arguement, maybe I already do not know what to do, after giving so much adviced but not being followed. It certainly frustrates me.

Finally have the time to pen down my feelings this morning and had some bible reading about "Tamar" and also " Pophitar's wife". Later will need to make time for my cousins that will be coming down from KL for CNY visit, and I will need to entertain my cousin and her cute Ivan. =) Very excited to meet little Ivan again.

Back home to Lipis had gone a little more fun. Uncle from Sabah came back to Lipis for the 1st time for Chinese New Year. So as a gang of How's we went window shopping in pasar tani after our mamak food makan. More than 10 of us squeezed in gramps house. I felt warmed to be in this family. They chatted and chatted as me the younger ones stayed connected with the younger ones, having chatty conversations and also taking Albert ( my boyfie) into the topic. Secondary school Girls -.-, showed me Albert's pic on facebook. This is not new to me for my Sabah cousins that are young but such internet connected. Having to sleep with them during lipis trip had made me know that they felt more at home being with just me and desiree.

Shirley ask me to sit next to her and she did not want any other to sit next to her. lolz. (melts) . The year of monkey. I wonder where can I help her to find the monkey she want. The astro one. I saw it somewhere in popular but uncertain if they still have stock.

Can't wait to meet the boyfie on the 6th day of CNY. It has been awhile since we meet face to face. Felt a bit terrible of kinda "neglected" him for the Lunar Year. I will make up for it my love. muax. I guess having someone you Love, you need to make some sacrifice. ^^ thorned in between this CNY. Hope that as time goes we will be able to plan our time for each other better. =) We will work things out, I"m sure. We have came this far darling boyfie.




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