2015 ended (reflection) as 2016 came in swiftly

Year 2015, I guess and hope that I have managed to encourage my friends or family members. Like every year there is a part of bitter and a part of sweet. Overall God has been good and helped me to pull through obstacles, be it on my own or with the help of my boyfie.

Although I don't feel that I have grown any wiser, but I'm growing older each year. Reflecting on end of year 2014 and last year, I learn to lead bible study with a few others sisters. We take turns to lead, it was a great learning experience for me. I may struggle to complete my message sometimes but I guess it helps me to be more certain when it comes to leading a small group of 4 or 5. I have a lot more to learn because I'm still not very very confident in it.

Last year's goals was to tithe at least rm140 every month, this I did not manage to do, but I did give freely for the Sister's group that need more support financially. Again for 7979 box offering fund I didn't manage to bank in money to them, although I have already told myself to do so to put in at least RM50 every month. In financial blessings, God has certainly been kind to me in finance this year. I have a cash gift of  Rm500 ( from MMHA for a competition) and  RM1050 (from Birthday end of last year). I'm not a good money steward again in year 2015, I need to learn to set my priorities of purchasing right.  About the unpaid debts from the past canada travels. I have yet to even pay any amount to dad. I must also do it this year.

Was suppose to complete at least the Old testament this year, I failed and managed until half of Psalms. I did not master the malay language as I wanted, slacking a lot from reading malay books. So I need to work on it this year.  I was suppose to inspired a person each month of year 2015 but I didn't manage to. I just managed to inspire 1 or 2 at the end of the year as I reflect back. I have a timothy (Des) , barnabas ( Alicia)  and a paul (Albert Khor)  this year and I thank God. My final goal is to bring Irene's kids to church this year, but it did not run according to plan.

My year 2015 has an addition, I'm taking Christian Counselling  course that may last up to 3 to 4 years. It is also another phrase of life. End of year mentakab oskar closed down, my house renovation due to termite infestation and having someone that loves me as I am (my dear albert).

So what I'm proud of about year 2015?

Having a boyfriend that loves me as I am and having to celebrate my birthday this year with him.
I got the prize with the help of my boyfriend Albert and my sister Samantha.
at least now i'm more open with my mental condition and that I'm willing to share with others about it.
led a few Sis2Sis meetings with the help of other commitee members. Having a group of christian sisters of the same age group.
Did a report on it on the last day of the year during watch night.
I had a non-depressed year end, I"m thankful that I'm well. (year end is my sensitive period for triggers)
did gym for 2 months (with kerxin)
did jog for 3 times. (with nicole)
Taking up counselling course.

What I'm not so proud of about year 2015?

crying some of my days away.
being angry and holding grudges on some things.
demanding things sometimes.
not working on finance well.
not getting to meet up with boyfriend's parents.


Goals for 2016
1) Get to know boyfriend's family better and understand them.
2) To help mum in the kitchen more often. (example: CNY) - steal recipes as well.
3) Cook a whole meal at least once a month. (i hope)
4) To make a difference in 1 or 2 people this year.
5) To learn up Malay Language.
6) To manage finance and read up the finance book.
7) try to learn more and practice counselling God willing.
8) to be sporty. (badminton or jog)

9) celebrate christmas with boyfriend and also his birthday.

moving onwards.


Living Only for Him and Only He knows my life