Tuesday, November 22, 2016

Retreat in Kota Tinggi Johor.


I have been very involve in my article writtings and also blogging lately in my commercial blog. I haven't have much chance to reflect and rest. I'm thankful that our Sis2Sis commitee did managed to go for a short get together and learn to communicate with God through silence.

Although the place is not as what I expected it to be. It was rather run down and not nicely mantained. Who knows maybe God wants us to just focus on communicating with him and not rely on any other activities.

I felt encouraged with this two words God gave during the night reflection and silence. 1) do not be a afraid and 2) be comforted.As it has been a few incident that cost me worries recently. The very recent one is the people that I work with in the writing place. There were some misunderstandings. There are many other pressures in life as well. But after I read the book "Being Truely Human by Mark Mah", it helped me think through and also know that sometimes I needed to just silent down and slow down my life, get close to God and walk through the desert, to see my real voice in all the important things.

Being in the desert can help someone to be his or herself. I do not need to think about how others view me about how I carry myself or how I decide on things. Also need not let things consume my life. Know what is the center of my life. I need God to be the center.  

Recently, I also realized that I came into a reading spree instead of a writting spree. I'm thankful that I get to make time to read a lot more than other times. I'm excited that I will be going for the BBW (Big Bad Wolf) Sales this year. May go get some stocks or maybe just for personal reading. Need to do a lot of budgetting for books, since I'm going to read a lot soon.

I also plan to do news readings from CNN or Star paper to keep updated with day to day news and also global news. Japan was hit by another earthquake today, Tom and Tara were the 1st ones who told me this morning about it. I hope everyone is alright now after the incident.



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Tuesday, September 6, 2016

28th Aug 2016 throwback =)

I felt very much encouraged on the 28th Aug 2016, everything run well although there are a few hiccups but I trusted God and then boom everything just fell into place; I cram my time to meet up with a few people in 1 day, and managed to do so with God's help.

Why do I feel blessed?

1) I get to meet my childhood friend Esther @ HIS church where she was actually Xinzi's churcmate, cellgroup mate ( Desiree's school mate and sunday school mate) and she has relocated to Singapore last week. It has been awhile since we catch up, I'm so surprised to meet her family too, I was there only to meet a former college mate of mine. I'm thankful that I learn about loving my country and the people, loving people that I dislike and spitefully use me. - i need to grow to be Anak Bangsa Malaysia, sometimes I do fail.

2) I ended late in HIS church because end up chatting a lot, so I rushed to Publika, thank God the jam wasn't bad and I got a good parking place and the rest of my friends find it difficult to get parking.

3) Met with Joanne from GroupBuy group. In a Resturant above MPH bookshop.

4)  I get to help my aunt Molly to pass some gifts to her friend Joanne as my parents has just came back from UK then.-  in front of MPH bookshop. ( did you see the links)? how God miraculously made my plans fall into place?

5) Riana was playing her pokemon Go and reached me without realizing that I was in MPH. It was my 1st time meeting up with Riana from Generasi Gemilang. So content that day to be able to meet up with this sister, I felt very encouraged to be able to soon serve Generasi Gemilang. 2 weeks from now, I will be going to help in ex8rate (volunteering in MS.Word, at the same time learning how to help next time). I really am thankful that in Generasi Gemilang I'm going to be able to practice my Malay Language...wheeee.... i'm so very excited..=)

I need to continue to persevere and don't give up serving. I'm sure God will take good care of me as long as I make myself available to Him.

~forgivenbabe~






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Saturday, April 30, 2016

April 2016

Just want to make time to blog to wrap up my April journey. I guess in April I get to meet up and catch up with 2 friends one on one. It is quite a encouraging thing to meet up. Managed to complete 5 subjects for assignment but still waiting for 2 results. The other 3, I have passed it with quite good results. For me, I'm content enough to be able to get those, all glory to the Lord. Seems like I have yet to be given a chance to really practice it.

I really need to go for basic skills soon. I pray and wished I will be able to take it next year. Since I do not have any basic skills from Marsha. I'm not allowed to take any advance skilled class. So now I'm allowed one and a half month off from studies. I plan to complete a few things, crochet table cloth, send the emboidery work to Nirah to sew a pillow case, and do some reading. Make more time for Albert's family as well. Wheee....free from 2 months of assignments. (but will complete studies later)

 I'm looking forward for tomorrow, I'm stepping into the month of May. Already made dates with friends and also boyfie. I hope I'm able to catch up with a few more others to encourage them in their life journeys.

My friend's mum and granpa will be baptised tomorrow (1st May). She is not a christian yet, I asked her to join us for baptism service but she told me that she already have plans. I'm so happy that her mum and granpa is part of our kingdom and church. It will be a good opportunity for me to reach my friend.

There will be our 1st anniversary for sis2sis tonight, fingers crossed... I will be able to cook properly so that no one will go into the toilet after having the meal. wakakakakak. I'm a newbie in cooking.  I must so learn more skills in cooking.. =)

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Wednesday, April 13, 2016

Heart check

Read this topic on today's our daily bread. I felt that if i'm going to fail after a spiritual heart check, that my heart is not fully towards heavenwards or towards God. My heart is now only on my relationship, my finance, my security, my phone games (yes comes pretty addictive at sometimes), and many other things that are instead of my Father in heaven. I know that this is scary but this seems like, I am not so into doing things in God's will. I need to so pray that God will give Grace that I my heart will be for heavenwards and not for my own selfish desires or worrying about my own life.

As I should trust that God will provide whatever that He feels I need. I would be more content that way, if I just stop worrying too much. Luke 12:22-34. My human nature overpower me each time I feel like things didn't go the way I wanted or feel. Sometimes hopeless is the feeling I have, I should instead, cling unto God's promises rather than on my own negative understanding of life.

These verses reminded me about my childhood favourite christian group. A song especially for this verse.

Where your treasure is by Steve Green


Then I listened to it today again, my heart was lifted. I hope my heart will be reminded where to be at in my walk with my maker and father in heaven.




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Sunday, April 10, 2016

Happy 1st anniversary my Love (in another 2 days)

We started our relationship over the phone on the 12th April 2015. A day that had changed both our statuses to available into attached. Since we have been one year being attached to one another, we had been trained to work as a team instead of thinking as an individual.

Yesterday, Albert brought me for a Pet Expo, it was my 1st time there, the Expo will only be on for 3 days.  I must so remember to accompany him to his favourite mall, the Amcrop Mall. I'm sure I will love it there. Anyway after walking around Pet Expo and looking at tags for my cat's in which I was just window shopping for them, seems like I can't find the perfect one within my budget.







 We met up with Jimmy and Louanna, our ibridge camp friends, that had made time to meet up for us. Had Sushi King with them for lunch, had a chat with them and managed to meet their dog Oreo. I also managed to see from a far, a former friend who left in speed, I'm not sure if they left not knowing I'm there or just didn't want to meet me. Anyway, let me put it that they didn't know I'm there. So that I will not habour in any negative feelings. It seems like the human me, felt a little bit disappointing. But let it be a bygone.

I certainly enjoyed walking around in Pet Expo with my dear. Having to see that even our pets are allowed to try on the food before we purchased them. To see if the Pet really love the food. They even sell trolley for pets. I felt that, the pet expo is for people to pamper their pets with expensive goods that are luxury and not needs. There are so many varieties of stuff, more common for dogs. I manage to see those cats that are in competition. Many Spinx and other breeds as well. All pedigree, in different breeds, shapes, ages and sizes. Love those huge cats. I saw many of Shalom's family there (same colour) lolz. Got some freebies and free magazines as well. Good enough for a RM5 ticket. Albert also did a questionnaire and get a freebie for shalom, fina and sweetie. I may bring Shalom along for the next Pet Expo, God willing if Shalom will not be too travel unhappy.

We went for Cafe Cafe, for dinner to celebrate our 1st anniversary of courtship. I love the food but the serving is a bit too huge for my eating, and the food is a bit too pricey for me. For a nice date like this, I'm thankful that Albert had taken the initiative to bring me for a good four course meal. I take comfort in the food and also the ambiance. It was like candle light dinner, but the difference is that there are many others in the Cafe. We got to witness one proposal just a few tables away. Such a beautiful sight. Let me thought about how mine will be like? up to my dear to be creative. ( muahahahah) I just wait and see. This is why being a girl is blessed. XD We sealed our night out with a kiss. Knowing that we will love each other for the longest time. I'm thankful to God that He has brought us so far, although we had disobeyed many occasions but still He was there kept caring and taking care of us. Thank You Father God.

I will post the pictures in later as the pictures are still either in Albert's phone or in my phone. A little difficult for me to post in now.





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Wednesday, April 6, 2016

Ecclesiastes

It is the 1st week of April. I'm finally reading the book Ecclesiastes. My eyes stop in the last few verses of Chapter 1 today.


16 I communed with mine own heart, saying, Lo, I am come to great estate, and have gotten more wisdom than all they that have been before me in Jerusalem: yea, my heart had great experience of wisdom and knowledge.
17 And I gave my heart to know wisdom, and to know madness and folly: I perceived that this also is vexation of spirit.
18 For in much wisdom is much grief: and he that increaseth knowledge increaseth sorrow.

What does this really mean? I searched about it today, asked God to teach me about it .
I searched online commentary and read about this 
"Yet this Searcher kept on, despite the increasing frustration that the more he knew the more he knew he did not know. At the close of his life, Isaac Newton said, "I have been paddling in the shallows of a great ocean of knowledge." He too felt the frustration of not being able to encompass more". Ray Stedman

This book is written when Solomon has a corrected mind from his past wrong doings.
http://www.raystedman.org/old-testament/ecclesiastes/the-search-for-meaning


In Conclusion, I felt that no matter how much we know about life, there are still things that we do not exactly know fully, so don't stop learning from God and don't feel bad if you don't know a lot of things.  



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Thursday, March 24, 2016

Prostitutes? Red Light District? Drugs?

Coming from a christian family, I have often been taught to be away from all those. It is often very disapproval if someone is into something like this, my family will start talking about so and so...don't be like him etc. It is very wrong to be doing things like that.

Today, I had a different perspective about them (prostitutes), knowing the reason behind it, brings me to shame about what they needed to go through not by their own actions or own accord but being tricked into it. I read the book from page 1 to the end today, and I realized that I wouldn't judge them so much from yesteryear. I know that some aren't trick into it, but most of them, at least those I read of, are being tricked into being prosty.  " Slave Girl" was the book that I read today.

This book was a story about a lady, she had been sexually and brutally abused by her own dad when she was a kid. She on her own accord went to Amsterdam for a job when she was 19, but her story was tragic, she didn't know that she was being tricked by a pimp. Her whole life story was brutal, tragic and had cost her a lot of hatred towards those who goes to "Red Light Districts". The reason why she didn't even trust policeman was because some of them was bribe by those pimps.

So many stories are share in 1 person's point of view, I'm not suprised that she in the end chose to be a lesbian, probably she did not really trust any man anymore, In the storybook, I found out that, her marriage life wasn't that good in the 1st few years due to her past. She was having a terribly hard time. I mean, that doesn't mean that it is okay that she became a lesbian. For me what is wrong, it is wrong.

For example, she found it so difficult to break the habit of taking more drugs, even after being safe from the slavery of being a sex slave, she went into the business of being a pimp herself for other girls. She did it for just awhile under the influence from another girl she loved. ( not the lady she married). Then finally after being in jail for awhile and came out of it, she married legally with another lady. If only a christian is there to tell her about Jesus.

I have heard about stories about Amsterdam having drug dealers etc, I have heard of them, but I have not ever read them in detailed before, this book is really an eye opener, if it wasn't for my cousin from Singapore that pass down the book for us to read, I wouldn't have read it. This book title was appealing to me, I'm always a fan of reading real life stories.

To sum up this book, it is scary, reading it from a 1st hand survivor. I will never look at prosty the way I look at them time next time. I will be more caring towards them and not ill treat them in anyway. Most of them go through "a hell on earth". Sigh. They are sinful, aren't we too? If they repent and have a clean slate, aren't we going to accept them? Sometimes, it is not really them who started it. Evil man or women had took them into this whole picture, maybe some was kidnapped and was human trafficked.


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