Tuesday, October 24, 2017

Recap since the year is ending.

Hello everyone,

I just realized that I did not update my blog post since Chinese New Year, so now I will fill you up with a few highlights.

As for now, I 'm still blogging occasionally on my commercial blog (myheartots.wordpress.com), I'm more active in blogging last year. I need to pick up soon. This many months have been a downward slope for my activity on my commercial blog.

Sunday School & Church
A little more active this year, because of the passing of Aunty Kimlee last year, the youths and young adults have came together to serve the church. Church had seen the needs to allow younger people to take over the ministry. In order to train younger people to be future leaders of the church.

Spiritual milestone- I managed to speak to the youth 1st of Oct about how to cope with stress. This was my 1st time doing it, and it was smooth, thanks be to God.

Xiamen, China Trip (19th- 28th March 2017)

My 1st ever trip to China. I was truly blessed with an opportunity to go to China that was fully sponsored by my uncle from Singapore. Had a great time with my mum's family there for 10 days. Visited a few tourist sites but in the rush state, due to time.

Albert Proposed!! (April 22, 2017)

I said yes!!! Albert and I got engaged on the April 22nd, during our couple photoshoot ( by my sister Samantha ) in Happiness Home 2. April marked our 2 years of courtship together and I'm thanking God for us every day.


I felt that I haven't been completing assignments quickly, as the business at work is good beginning of the year until recently. Probably due to the GE that will be coming. Many people wants to apply for their loans and receive money support from the government. Hence, time at work is used for only crocheting my items to sell online (only when I'm free)

A death of a childhood friend (May 2017)

A childhood friend passed away due to suicide. I was heart-sore to find out about it. Stress is so scary nowadays. May 2017.

A godson (July 2017)

God blessed Albert and I with a godson (Little I) that would be our ringbearer for my wedding. He is a very cute and clever boy. We all love him to bits. Currently many of the kids I know, sings the song baby shark, and our godson sings that song too.

Kuantan sleepover - 1st trip for sleepover ( Aug 2017)

Slept in cousin Vendi house. Went to the turtle sanctuary, bringing little I there with us. Went to meet up with Albert's Bestman as well. Suprised to see Aunty hionglan in Albert's former church. Great to see Little I, so cheerful and clever (speak so well). A very warm welcome from Little I. Love the time spent with our little godson that is growing so much each day. 

A run together with Albert- 1st event run together (24th Sept 2017)

read more here, I blog about it in the commercial blog. 

A mission trip to Mukah, Sarawak - 1st mission trip together (18-22 Oct 2017)

our very 1st flight together.

Feelings & Reflection

This is my very 1st mission trip outside peninsular, yes I was very excited to see the long houses at the same time I'm also very nervous to speak in public and to share my testimony of faith. I did it anyway with God's help. I survived but in some occasions I felt as if , others are doing the work for me when I have already prepared them properly.

There was one night in Beruan when I felt very much unused, I questioned the whole thing, why did I prepare so hard and did nothing. My song lead and ice breaker were taken over by another. I told the fiance about how I felt and then the fiance and I have a good chat and I felt very much lifted going "paktor" with him at night and in the morning. I have conflicting thoughts, was I ever good enough? This experience had humbled me even more.

Testimony was a good step for me to stand up and share it with the people there, I tried my best to project my voice. The fiance told me that my singing was a little too soft to listen. ( need to bear with the no mic area).

Skit helps me to bold myself to also project my voice louder and have more confidence to speak in Iban language. ( 1st few skit, I didn't get to project my voice loud enough).

Looking at the children at the long houses warms my heart with their simplicity and willingness to learn.

There are 12 of us in our teams, coming from different churches but worshiping and honoring the same God. To go through everything together as a team was God's blessing. I believe God was in our midst to be accommodating with one another, serve together as a team and being forgiving to each other's flaws and weaknesses.

Experience of having to shower with a sarong, with an open aired toilet, was out of my comfort zone, but I was determine and I took the courage to shower there with Julia's tips.


After writing down things, I realized that this year is a year of many 1st times that we did together finally as a couple, after being together for 2 years. I'm thankful for all the blessings God has showered upon us. I'm looking forward to the many more journey and paths that God has installed for us. Individually I have many 1st times as well this year. Preparing for my wedding is one of my 1st time (laughs).

Living Only for Him and Only He knows my life

Thursday, February 9, 2017

January (Monthly Reflection)

Did I managed to work on any from the list of my resolutions?

1) Help mum in kitchen more often.(once a week)

I haven't started doing that but at least I did help mum during CNY with the dishes and also when I went back to gramps. Thats something that I feel content that I make time to do it. 

2) Have a book on recipe that I have tried cooking. 

No book yet so far. As I haven't really put my hands into cooking. 

3) Learn up Malay/ Iban

Learnt Iban like for almost 2 weeks and then later did not continue until after CNY. I'm still procastinating. I should get back to reading Bup Kudus. 

4) Read up Finance Book & Learn to manage finance well.

Yet to read the book on finance yet.

5) Do all the classes by MBTS this year.

Classes havent started yet, it will start next week ( Feb 18th 2017)

6) Set time priorities only for Sunday School, ibridge camp and then mission trip 2017.

I heard that ibridge will be during raya time, so I will not be able to go for ibridge camp this year or help them. The mission trip will be in the month of Oct 18th- 22nd. So need to start working on my Iban language and Malay language. 

Yes I did manage to set priorities for Sunday School this year. I will be chairing songs for the Sunday School this year. 

7) Sports every week twice. (try not to spend on sports, jogging or badminton can take care of finance)

I only manage to do 1 time for January and that was only awhile as we woke up late. 

8) Make time for family, Albert Khor and family; and God (monthly quiet retreat with God). (once a week chitchat)

I didn't manage to chit chat with Albert on the phone at least once a week for the allocated time to listen and to pray together, I didn't manage to make time to retreat with God as well. Maybe I should start waking up early in the morning to do it with God. (feeling sorry about it).

9) Write articles every 2 days. (improve on writing)

No, i did not get to write 2 articles everyday, it has been busy in the shop, at home and in church. I need to really sit down and make time to write.

10) Complete at least Old Testament this year! (hello it is already year 2017!)

I will be changing this resolution to following and keeping up to date with the bible app that I have on the phone. I'm in day 34 of the bible app for 365 days.  

I'm thankful that God has bring me this far. I'm doing well lately after an episode of gloominess due to my body. 2 weeks before Chinese New Year, rushing into Dr. appointments, clinics and writtings. I'm thankful I'm feeling so much better now. Thanks for my bf for his support during this gloominess and being strong for me. He is really my hero in this matter. =) Financially supporting me as well. Thanks dear.  

Living Only for Him and Only He knows my life

Saturday, December 31, 2016

So did it manage to do what I wanted to do in Year 2016?

The end of Year 2016, this was what I wrote in the beginning of this year. Before I embark to write down my goals for next year, maybe I should look through what I have done and completed this year.

Goals for 2016

1) Get to know boyfriend's family better and understand them.

I managed to meet them more often this year than last year, celebrated Christmas with them for the 1st time, I'm glad to be able to feel accepted as a friend and part of their lives. Although I still have much to learn about them, I have a lifetime. ( I hope I can be teachable). I feel that sometimes I try very hard to come out with a topic to talk about, but I guess as I get to know them better, I will not feel too obliged. 

2) To help mum in the kitchen more often. (example: CNY) - steal recipes as well.

I did help in the kitchen during CNY but after that I didn't managed to do it. (shame on me), maybe I should look at my goals every month to review and evaluate what I have done. 

3) Cook a whole meal at least once a month. (i hope)

This item, I did not do for the whole year! I managed only to cook soup, chicken and vegetables.  ( that is considered whole meal for me this year) at least I play around with the ingredients in the wok and the pot.

4) To make a difference in 1 or 2 people this year.

I can't recall if I made any difference to anyone this year. I hope I did, I do not have any particular of people that I feel I have made a difference. At least I know, I did not try to help a lot. 

5) To learn up Malay Language.

hahahahah this is funny, many years overdue for this, should I actually give this up?

6) To manage finance and read up the finance book.

I did not complete reading the book! I should make this as my year 2017 goal then, and then return it back to Aunty Kimpin, since it belongs to Aunty Kimlee. 

7) try to learn more and practice counselling God willing.

I did managed to practice counselling among some of my friends (p & c) though. 

8) to be sporty. (badminton or jog)

Heys I managed to complete my 25km jog/walk, ginger bread virtual run in December 2016. Clap hands for myself. Maybe I should proceed this so that I can continue to take care of my mental health and health through it. 

Goals for 2017

1) Help mum in kitchen more often.(once a week)
2) Have a book on recipe that I have tried cooking. 
3) Learn up Malay/ Iban
4) Read up Finance Book & Learn to manage finance well.
5) Do all the classes by MBTS this year.
6) Set time priorities only for Sunday School, ibridge camp and then mission trip 2017.
7) Sports every week twice. (try not to spend on sports, jogging or badminton can take care of finance)
8) Make time for family, Albert Khor and family; and God (monthly quiet retreat with God). (once a week chitchat)
9) Write articles every 2 days. (improve on writing)
10) Complete at least Old Testament this year! (hello it is already year 2017!)

Excited for year 2017 to unfold itself. I'm thankful for all the sadness, pain, happiness, learning experience that God have given to me in year 2016. May I learn to be more mature each day and be more in order in life. Leave everything to my Father in Heaven. 

Living Only for Him and Only He knows my life

Tuesday, November 22, 2016

Retreat in Kota Tinggi Johor.

I have been very involve in my article writtings and also blogging lately in my commercial blog. I haven't have much chance to reflect and rest. I'm thankful that our Sis2Sis commitee did managed to go for a short get together and learn to communicate with God through silence.

Although the place is not as what I expected it to be. It was rather run down and not nicely mantained. Who knows maybe God wants us to just focus on communicating with him and not rely on any other activities.

I felt encouraged with this two words God gave during the night reflection and silence. 1) do not be a afraid and 2) be comforted.As it has been a few incident that cost me worries recently. The very recent one is the people that I work with in the writing place. There were some misunderstandings. There are many other pressures in life as well. But after I read the book "Being Truely Human by Mark Mah", it helped me think through and also know that sometimes I needed to just silent down and slow down my life, get close to God and walk through the desert, to see my real voice in all the important things.

Being in the desert can help someone to be his or herself. I do not need to think about how others view me about how I carry myself or how I decide on things. Also need not let things consume my life. Know what is the center of my life. I need God to be the center.  

Recently, I also realized that I came into a reading spree instead of a writting spree. I'm thankful that I get to make time to read a lot more than other times. I'm excited that I will be going for the BBW (Big Bad Wolf) Sales this year. May go get some stocks or maybe just for personal reading. Need to do a lot of budgetting for books, since I'm going to read a lot soon.

I also plan to do news readings from CNN or Star paper to keep updated with day to day news and also global news. Japan was hit by another earthquake today, Tom and Tara were the 1st ones who told me this morning about it. I hope everyone is alright now after the incident.

Living Only for Him and Only He knows my life

Tuesday, September 6, 2016

28th Aug 2016 throwback =)

I felt very much encouraged on the 28th Aug 2016, everything run well although there are a few hiccups but I trusted God and then boom everything just fell into place; I cram my time to meet up with a few people in 1 day, and managed to do so with God's help.

Why do I feel blessed?

1) I get to meet my childhood friend Esther @ HIS church where she was actually Xinzi's churcmate, cellgroup mate ( Desiree's school mate and sunday school mate) and she has relocated to Singapore last week. It has been awhile since we catch up, I'm so surprised to meet her family too, I was there only to meet a former college mate of mine. I'm thankful that I learn about loving my country and the people, loving people that I dislike and spitefully use me. - i need to grow to be Anak Bangsa Malaysia, sometimes I do fail.

2) I ended late in HIS church because end up chatting a lot, so I rushed to Publika, thank God the jam wasn't bad and I got a good parking place and the rest of my friends find it difficult to get parking.

3) Met with Joanne from GroupBuy group. In a Resturant above MPH bookshop.

4)  I get to help my aunt Molly to pass some gifts to her friend Joanne as my parents has just came back from UK then.-  in front of MPH bookshop. ( did you see the links)? how God miraculously made my plans fall into place?

5) Riana was playing her pokemon Go and reached me without realizing that I was in MPH. It was my 1st time meeting up with Riana from Generasi Gemilang. So content that day to be able to meet up with this sister, I felt very encouraged to be able to soon serve Generasi Gemilang. 2 weeks from now, I will be going to help in ex8rate (volunteering in MS.Word, at the same time learning how to help next time). I really am thankful that in Generasi Gemilang I'm going to be able to practice my Malay Language...wheeee.... i'm so very excited..=)

I need to continue to persevere and don't give up serving. I'm sure God will take good care of me as long as I make myself available to Him.


Living Only for Him and Only He knows my life

Saturday, April 30, 2016

April 2016

Just want to make time to blog to wrap up my April journey. I guess in April I get to meet up and catch up with 2 friends one on one. It is quite a encouraging thing to meet up. Managed to complete 5 subjects for assignment but still waiting for 2 results. The other 3, I have passed it with quite good results. For me, I'm content enough to be able to get those, all glory to the Lord. Seems like I have yet to be given a chance to really practice it.

I really need to go for basic skills soon. I pray and wished I will be able to take it next year. Since I do not have any basic skills from Marsha. I'm not allowed to take any advance skilled class. So now I'm allowed one and a half month off from studies. I plan to complete a few things, crochet table cloth, send the emboidery work to Nirah to sew a pillow case, and do some reading. Make more time for Albert's family as well. Wheee....free from 2 months of assignments. (but will complete studies later)

 I'm looking forward for tomorrow, I'm stepping into the month of May. Already made dates with friends and also boyfie. I hope I'm able to catch up with a few more others to encourage them in their life journeys.

My friend's mum and granpa will be baptised tomorrow (1st May). She is not a christian yet, I asked her to join us for baptism service but she told me that she already have plans. I'm so happy that her mum and granpa is part of our kingdom and church. It will be a good opportunity for me to reach my friend.

There will be our 1st anniversary for sis2sis tonight, fingers crossed... I will be able to cook properly so that no one will go into the toilet after having the meal. wakakakakak. I'm a newbie in cooking.  I must so learn more skills in cooking.. =)

Living Only for Him and Only He knows my life

Wednesday, April 13, 2016

Heart check

Read this topic on today's our daily bread. I felt that if i'm going to fail after a spiritual heart check, that my heart is not fully towards heavenwards or towards God. My heart is now only on my relationship, my finance, my security, my phone games (yes comes pretty addictive at sometimes), and many other things that are instead of my Father in heaven. I know that this is scary but this seems like, I am not so into doing things in God's will. I need to so pray that God will give Grace that I my heart will be for heavenwards and not for my own selfish desires or worrying about my own life.

As I should trust that God will provide whatever that He feels I need. I would be more content that way, if I just stop worrying too much. Luke 12:22-34. My human nature overpower me each time I feel like things didn't go the way I wanted or feel. Sometimes hopeless is the feeling I have, I should instead, cling unto God's promises rather than on my own negative understanding of life.

These verses reminded me about my childhood favourite christian group. A song especially for this verse.

Where your treasure is by Steve Green

Then I listened to it today again, my heart was lifted. I hope my heart will be reminded where to be at in my walk with my maker and father in heaven.

Living Only for Him and Only He knows my life