God will take care (James 1:12)

"Blessed is the man that endureth temptation : for when he is tried, he shalt receive the crown of life, which the lord hath promised to them that love him." james 1:12

Raymond is now having bleeding in the nose, trakea and mouth. I'm not sure of why..and his palatte count is too low for medication. It's so difficult to see that he can surive...but i still believe that a miracle can happen if God allows Raymond to be well. But i thank god for this verse.

Daniel (his elder bro) told me he'll be taking care of raymond tonight. I'm back home to pahang at the moment. Please pray for the family members that will be taking care of him.

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John Hoo...a testimony..of God's healing hand

http://john-hoo.blogspot.com/

my friend let me know abt John Hoo...through his testimony...does encourage me on to trust in God that he will take care of Raymond. Just as he has done to John Hoo. =)


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Dr.s Said -never progressing

Abraham, who, contrary to hope, in hope believed, so that he became the father of many nations, according to what was spoken, "So shall your descendants be." And not being weak in faith, he did not consider his own body, already dead (since he was about a hundred years old), and the deadness of Sarah's womb. He did not waver at the promise of God through unbelief, but was strengthened in faith, giving glory to God, and being fully convinced that what He had promised He was also able to perform.

Romans 4:18-21 (New King James Version)

Wht? 100 % brain damage equals brain dead. It was hard...I questioned the dr. " will he still recover from it?" if it is brain dead equals there will be no recovery. No other medication that we can feed him with it the brain is not moving. We prayed hard...

I'm just left dumb folded, couldnt just talk for awhile. I believe God just answered our very own prayer during that time to sustain Raymond. Another dr. checked him at 6pm and told me that his brain function 60% off the other 40% still there. I do believe in miracles that God will still can make it happen at no matter what state. God will make a way, where there seems to be no way.

I kept asking the dr. how come he still can react with tears and when they are feeding him..i still can see him moving. He told me he cant explain coz he just isnt there to see it. He was tearing i told him...is it his own reflect or it is just a body reflect. Dr cant explain that.

How come the blood pressure and his heart beat is better yesterday? Dr say...it is always the brain cant function that little by little it'll shut the heart and then...that is the end of it..When i heard that .i cant tear at all at that moment.

I'm just very troubled that moment...then i prayed with raymond in thankfulness that God still give him a 40% to recover. I believe that 40% will be better...rather than detoriating. I hope humanly that he'll recover...quickly by my valentine...it'll be our 1 year together. Neither that i know that things like these would happen. If I know i would have spend more time with him.

I really thank God we did went to Singapore together end of last year. We even promise Aunty Ann that we'll be going this Dec again. I hope he'll be awaked then. God allows it...it'll be a great blessing....please pray hard for many of us...we find it really hard to believe that God want to cure him sometimes....God please help my unbelieve....=( . God i pray that you'll heal him....raymond is your precious one...he'll be the person that will share to everyone about your blessing in his life. I came to realize...human plans will not always be done. Sometimes life is at stake...since we're still in earth...I agree that we do have earthly blessings from God...but...as we focus on the creator God. God have it more over in His home. And i trust that all of us have to continue to fight this battle in the Lord...

He is the only one that knows every thing. =) Keep praying for raymond. His CT scan is out today. Pray that the dr.s know how to help him. Thank you for updating yourself by reading my blog. GBU



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GH trasfered to High defination Ward

Yesterday doctors call uncle eng ngee to let him know the trasfer and they transfered raymond to a ward in the morning. So on the 26th i reached Malacca and God just allowed me to be in a situation to see changes in raymond.

I believe God just know everything that we need. God just put everything in place for me and raymond and also his family. Everything seems in time. The time when i met raymond he became better, i just thank God that he is progessing. His heartbeat is better this week. 64- 66 normal heartbeat is usually 70-80. I heard his blood pressure drop to 98 for normal person suppose to be 110 bp. Yesterday i was so thankful that he had progessed to 111/65 bp.

I heard from the doctor, his eyes pupil is back to normal. Today dr.s will be talking with uncle see again. So far he is still using a machine to support his oxygen (vendilator). I'll be going back tonight to help to care for raymond. Will try to keep this updated tomorrow if i can.

Thank you so much for reading especially those who pray along and give messages of scriptures as well as word of encouragement to me. I believe that it had really been a blessing to know so many bros and sisters. (especially sisters that read my blog and wrote a comment) so thoughtful of you to do so.

Ya i remember crying while singing each sunday asking God for a miracle in Raymond's case..missing him so much...during worship. and singing and meditating on God's word. It is indeed a great blessing being his partner when he is still healthy... God will in His time heal our dear raymond completely, but it just take patience and complete trust in the family =). (thanks Irene)

"Casandra, I came to know about Raymond when I dropped by MGC early January 2010 when we were down in Malacca to check out a place for camp. I was seated a row behind you and I couldnt figured out why you kept tear-ing until Uncle Tiong prayed and shared about Raymond. Just want to let you know as well that my church is also praying for Raymond and we have him on our prayer list every week and constant updates from Ngee Zheng. NZ was with us for a couple of years before he went overseas. I am encouraged to hear some good reports on him, about him shedding tears. God has a reason for all and it's my prayer too that you keep strong. God works for the good of those who love Him. -Irene-"

I pray and believe that AuntyLian and uncle engngee is growing better in the Lord. Aunty Lian ( raymond's mum) is lead to pray together with the help of uncle engngee. tht is a very good decision and i'm very please that they are trying with their whole best to learn to leave it to the Lord for peace and comfort. I believe that the Lord would be much please that us humans =).

As for me, I'll be going back this coming saturday and sunday. Needed to be back home to work. It'll be much better for me to take a time off...working as well as the next time helping to take turns to care for raymond when he is recovering. God will take care of things. God will lead. Will just leave everything to God that this point of time.

Special prayers...do pray for those family members that are taking care of raymond that they'll not fall sick while taking care of him. Coz we need prayer support. I'm having little sore throat and slight headache yesterday. Do pray for complete recovery.

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Raymond's eyes teared

we know Raymond can listen...really hope that he'll recover in speed. =( i cant wait for his recovery.. But i just thank God that he is still keeping him. may our lord God continue to answer our needs at this point of time.

I haven't meet him for a week plus. Will he be thinking about me right now...? i Hope that God will give him the comfort and peace during this point of time. and also the strenght to continue living for Him.

Daniel told me that he just went to meet Raymond this morning with Pastor Samuel. When Pastor Sam is praying, Raymond did teared. Even when Aunty Lian ( his mom) talking with Raymond...they saw tears in his eyes. I'm thankful that Raymond is responding with tears. At least we know he is responding.

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From our future Ring bearer & Flower Girls

this is a card from Zhien

could see this 5 year old boy...growing into a smart boy.

he really misses you.

this is the front page of the card

believing that God will answer our little siblings prayers. Get well soon Raymond. We're all praying for you.

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The need to move to KL General Hospital (ICU)

Dr.s told Uncle See that Raymond needs to move to KL GHospital because Raymond might need to go through Biopsy for the brain. Please keep Raymond and the doctors in prayers..so that Raymond will be able to be transfered ASAP with a place vacant for him to be medicated and giving a accurate attention to.

KL GHospital ICU will be one of the best for Raymond.But it'll also be a risk due to his unstable health condition that Raymond is having right now. It is very difficult to transfer a patient that is already almost near to coma. I'm not so sure if he is in a coma state now.

But according to Uncle See, Raymond is having a "2nd Stage" coma. Do not know if the Dr.s told Uncle See. But Raymond's health condition is not good. Please do pray hard for Raymond, that he'll get well and wake up soon =(. Only God understands the details of his health that no man will understand.

thanks for dropping by to know more abt Raymond's condition as well as praying for him.



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heartbeat still slow

Heartbeating still slow. Was on the phone with uncle see to ask about raymond's condition. His condition is much weaker than last week when i'm still there. Now not even tears coming down from his eyes. The last time I met him before I left on Sunday, he was much better. His eyes are still partially opened. We still could see him closing his eyes. =(

Our only hope is on the Lord...=(

keep praying that his heartbeat will be normal. The medication started, dr.s said, it'll take 4 days to show if the medication is effective. We'll have to wait and see...praying for a miracle. =( May our Lord God preserve your health dearest Raymond. I pray real hard and with my heart =(.

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Lord my strength and my redeemer

Psalms 19:14
Let the words of my mouth ,and the meditation of my heart,
be acceptable in thy sight, O LORD my strength and my
redeemer.

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It is in the valleys I grow.

an aunt from TGC gave me this link today. I felt encouraged and wanted to share with everyone that is going through hardship as a christian.

http://llerrahmusic.com/viewcard.php?code=102467


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Swelling in the brain

Last night doctors informed his heart beat became slower. Dr.s haven't dicover why is this happening to Raymond. What virus is it? etc etc but Raymond's condition is still unstable and he is not awake until now.

PTL our Lord God had answered our prayers, Uncle See managed to make an appointment today to meet up with neurologist Dr. Udaman. CT scan shows Raymond has a swell in the brain. Dr. Udaman told Uncle Engngee and Raymond's aunt (Aunt Dolly) that they'll be trying a 2 new medication for Raymond. Pray that the vaccination will fit effectively without any side effects on Raymond's body. (1) to reduce brain swelling and (2) for treatment.



Pray for the doctors and nurses that is trying their best in helping Raymond's state as well. Pray that the Lord will give them the ability to think about solution for Raymond's sickness.


Please do continue to pray for Raymond as he is both dear to my family and his family. and his other friends. Pray for God's miraculous healing upon him. Really really miss Raymond =(.

Again I just have to believe that the Lord controls everything. He'll continue to help us through this time. He is the only pillar of strength to many of us, during this point of time. GOD will be Raymond's healer. GOD the Lord of Moses and Abram will be our strength and only HOPE...this we have to TRUST. There is no other way.

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Raymond's post on his blog

http://rayseemylittleworld.blogspot.com/

it is still comforting reading his blog today. to know that he is so close with the Lord. =)

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Lord you know it all.

1 cor 2:9

But it is written, " eye had not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man, the things which God had prepared for them that love Him"

God has been with us. Speaking to us in His own ways through songs and hymns and scriptures each day to keep us refreshed and assured about His presence...in Raymond's life..and ours.

Just have to trust and have faith that everything will be well.


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Back home & start working.

Was reading the morning devotion today. Was assured about God's love for everyone of us. As well as towards Raymond.

The verse was taken from Romans 8:38-39

And the song "Such Love" just came into meditation.

I'm back @ Temerloh at the moment to work and to keep my mind working as well as for a little rest. Will try my best to update everyone. But if you can't get the updates from my blog. Please do drop by MGC youth prayer blog for more details about Raymond's condition. http://mgcboleh.blogspot.com/

Really appreciate everyone's prayers from everywhere.
Just would like to let everyone know that the Lord will do what is best for Raymond. We just have to put faith, hope and trust in Him our Lord God the creator of the universe.

The latest that i know is Dr. Udaman the only Neurologist is still not available to talk with uncle see for futher information about Raymond's brain condition. This we have to really pray that the Dr.s will take notice about our eagerness to know about Raymond. Very difficult to meet with any doctors...this happens so frequently. Uncle See have to wait so many hours for the doctors to have the availability to meet up.

We thought they say we can meet Dr. Udaman today. But still can't more than a week in ICU...still havent meet Dr. Udaman the neurologist. Pray hard.!!~
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With Christ in the vessel

With christ in the vessel, we can smile at the storm. I went to your granaunt's place last night, I realized the peace and comfort that comes from the Lord. I wasn't bitter, none of us were...not even your mum. (thank God)

The brain scan shows negative again. They still can't find out what sickness you were having up until now. I feel with you and your family, but i believe with God's strenght we could continue to go on living together to fight whatever sickness that you are going through, together with you. Ta ge ( Daniel) ask us, how is your comdition, he was suprised to see us smiling still although your state is still weak. thank God for the peace and the prayers for many christian friends and family.

Aunty Ann and Aunty Dolly is specially concern, I could see them asking over the phone about your condition. Your aunty Kim and aunty ah fah as well. I remember Ah yee ( aunty mary) crying when Aunty Ann prayed with us last saturday. Everyone is waiting to see God's miracle in your life. dear Raymond, I believe that the Lord will be good to grant us this wish, in His time.

With Christ in the vessel we can smile at the storm. miss you so much dearest Raymond.


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Brain Scan & Second Lumber Puncture

I haven't visit him yet. I heard from his dad that the doctors did a brain scan in the morning. Even if the brain scan is positive or negative, raymond might need to go through a second lumber puncture. Doctors still can't find the virus or the main part of the brain that is infected.

So we just all need to stay strong in the Lord and continue to pray to the Lord that the doctors will have to wisdom. and also that the doctors will get to find out why this happened to raymond.
he is getting weaker each day we see him. Just need prayer for God's miraculous healing power.

I Am The God That Healeth lyrics

Don Moen

Lyrics:

I am the God that Healeth thee I am the Lord Your healer I sent My word And I healed your disease I am the Lord Your healer You are the God that Healeth me You are the Lord My healer You sent Your word And You healed my disease You are the Lord My healer You sent Your word And You healed My disease You are the Lord My healer You sent Your word And You healed My disease You are the Lord My healer

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Viral Encephalitis (it might be)

I saw him today @ the ICU at the same time meeting up with one of his ICU doctors. She told us about his condition. Initially we thought that they moved him to a 4 person room because his health condition is much better, but she say he hadn't progress.

She just told us his limbs cant be moved. He'll be given phisiotherapy. And he still couldn't breath on his own. If he still can't breath in another 4 days...they'll need to put a hole in his throat so that he can breath better and more care can be taken. Whatever things that the doctors say at this moment of time seems negative now but I still believe in miracles. I will never give up believing my dearest will be well.. =)

Because He lives, I could face tomorrow,
Because He lives, all fear is gone.
Because I know, I know He holds the future,
And empty grave is there to prove my saviour lives.

http://www.betterhealth.vic.gov.au/bhcv2/bhcarticles.nsf/pages/Viral_encephalitis
http://www.pahlawan.com.my/voice/vecrisis.shtml
http://kidshealth.org/parent/infections/bacterial_viral/encephalitis.html#
http://www.pdrhealth.com/disease/disease-mono.aspx?contentFileName=BHG01ID01.xml&contentName=Viral+Encephalitis&contentId=159

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Raymond's Church friends encouragement

Yesterday I went to Malacca Gospel Chapel for worship. I could feel the sense of being belong to our Father in heaven. I know for sure God is out there and in our presence to listen to His little child cries. I remember that when I was singing songs of praise to our Lord God, I was thinking about you. The first time we went worship together @ mgc, I remembered I was so proud of you, leading the singing, sharing a little verse or two, with your own simple and not so confident way =), but i appreciate it and believed that God was too. I couldnt help but crying all out to God.

I'm so thankful to God in so many things. Thankful that God has bring me so in time for everything, i'm so glad. He comforted me with people I meet in church. The songs that we sing to Him. I'm so touched by His presence and His people. They came from everywhere. This week KL assembly was visiting MGC for a short retreat to find a campsite for their church. The church gave you another love gift of money, in which could cover most of your medical fee and our transportation. I'm so thankful. I sms uncle rodney and uncle kian boon this , "God loves a cheeerful giver" and had ask them to pass it around in the sms.

As for cafeteria@ church, I was very blessed to get encouraged and feel the sympatize they gave to us. One aunty came and hug me. Sinyee...the girl that just got engaged around the same time as us was there to talk over a cup of tea. And we were all talking about melissa's finger that has seems to be fractured during games @ the recent camp. I smsed Sinyee that i appreciate it yesterday and that "a joyful heart is a good medicine, and a broken spirit dries up the bones." because me and aaron still feel the peace and joy that comes from God, that we just willingly share and also laugh freely. =) (this i thank God, I believe you too thank God).

It was indeed God's blessing when I saw you reacting last afternoon, eyes opening and fingers moving a little bit. Although you wanted to talk so much, but you couldn't. I sympathise with you, at the same time was so happy that you recovered bit by bit.

I could see that you recovered from the time you leave that terrible Pantai hospital that overdose you and cost you more pain. God really had made us shift hospitals..intitially we thought we dint have enough money to cover the cost for your medical fee...so your dad decided that you change hospital, it wasn't because we feel that it gave you bad treatment but God just knew. Now I could see you in better care and you rested more than you were in pantai hospital. I felt more assured that you we left in the ICU care. 24 hours@ General Hospital. They are more careful with things...this is what i'm thankful for. ( thank you God)

Yesterday, aunty waiying came to pray for you. (aunty seoknging's friend) She came all the way just to pray...and then leave. I prayed for you two times, in the same time slot ( afternoon slot) yesterday. letting the both of us know that what in future when you recovers we'll continue to praise the Lord and give Him the glory and honour and praise. because He is powerful.

Jesus shall take the highest honour
Jesus shall take the highest praise
Let all earth join heaven in exalting
The Name which is above all other names
Let's bow the knee in humble adoration
For at His name every knee must bow
Let every tongue confess He is Christ, God's only Son
Sovereign Lord, we give You glory now

For all honour and blessing and power
Belongs to You, belongs to You
All honour and blessing and power
Belongs to You, belongs to You
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of the living God

this song was shared by Darel yesterday during worship. I sung to you when you were already awake. With thankful hearts after we all met you...we were singing in the car...that is the first time I sense the joy and the contentment about your condition. =) maybe i'm already taking it as, God will heal you in His time. I can't wait for you to read these that I've been writing here.
But I did told you to take your time to rest until you recover. =) Take your time to recover. I can't wait raymond!! miss your voice.



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Hoped you recovered sooner (30th Dec 2009)

When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

here are no details in life that is too small for God to handle. Neither are there problems too big that his strong arms cannot uphold and save you. Jeremiah 32:17 Ah, Sovereign LORD, you have made the heavens and the earth by your outstrecthed arm. Nothing is too hard for you.

from the 30th Dec 2009, I was thinking that you were just having a normal fever that need to be meditated by the professionals. When your condition weakeness. I went down all the way to malacca just to give a helping hand with the heart of never knowing that your condition would worsened.

I went down on the 3rd of Jan 2010. I was just quite contented that you were quite well then. Although body temperature states that your fever was as high as 39 then slowly went down to 37. (I feel regretful now for the things i've scolded you about thinking about others. You weren't an easy patient to take care. Although i just started taking care of you that night.) Your hands are already weak that time. You needed me to feed you a bread the first thing when i reached pantai malacca. That time i wasn't aware that you were slowly feeling very weaked in health.
the whole night you were letting me know that you are cold... i remembered seeing you shivering since i met you on the 3rd.

The hospital doctors realized that you could not urine like normal, so decided to do the tube one. and your fever recovered completely. I was thanking God. but then your condition worsened..when you started to have hiccups. I was so worried. You go through so much more than i could imagined =(. I feel for you. Because i know how difficult is it for you. To see yourself in this condition. You were the person who told me...you are very afraid of needles and hospitals.
You have a fear there. They take your blood nearly everyday. Until today in the general hospital they still need to test the blood to find out why is the sickness weakening the body.

I learned to be strong these past few days taking the night shift just to be with you. I remb the time when they transfered you to general hospital, malacca. The first night you were very scary. I was the first time in my life, that i have to go through this together with someone i really love and cared for, that will be part of my life in future. I was really afraid at the same time i was worried for you...

I believe that the Lord was good to me to be able to see you before you health condition gets worsened. I even get to hug you a lot of times...the day before when you still can walk and talk like normal. Doctors still do not know why your body weakeness. ( that i thanked God). I just know that God is working inside somehow...I would have been in RBS mission trip this year. Now I get a clearer picture of things, I wasn't available for RBS 2010 because i have other things to attend to. a BIGGER mission, to take care of you and to minister to the rest of the non-christians in our family. ( remb that time tht i was down because i dint know why i'm not allowed to be in rbs this year?) now i know...everything is under God's control...He knew that things will turn out this way. He gave me the time to take care of you.

God is so wonderful isn't He?( Lord we both thank you.)
on the 4th jan, you weren't allowed to walk...but you were very sad...that i could see...you dint want to believe you dint have the strength to do so. You were just adjusting to the outcome. I'm worried for you...at the same time i was very angry for myself...because I treated you terribly the day before. I was just taken aback...this is one of the biggest test that i ever had with you...i'm glad that you are still praying for me yesterday. I thank God that you are still in the Lord. I'm thankful dear raymond...i really wished that you can get better.

But it seems that God still continue to allow things that we thought we couldn't handle to happen.

1 cor 10:13
New International Version (©1984)
No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.

Your sickness have made me draw much closer ties with your parents, your family members and my family members. (this is what i cant wait to let you feel the way it is right now) If you are awake now and recovered and sitting next to me...i believe that you'll be so happy that you future wife is in good terms with your family. =) ) My dearest ...i couldn't wait for your recovery..there are so many things that I havent do with you..., we just had our engagement not long ago. I couldnt help it but to cry..when the doctors say...maybe something wrong with your brain...i pray and hope it isn't.

Everyday is worry some to take care of you...but i've learnt to be a bolder person for you. Learning to take notice...the detailed way to take good care of you can make sure you are resting properly. I was learning to be a very independent person. And to decide for you as well.

I learn to be concerned about others as well. Especially those laying down on the hospital bed. and those who are looking after them.. i sympathize with them and their condition. I thought i cannot handle my feelings. But i've learnt more about myself...i became stronger when i read the scriptures yesterday when I reach home after the night shift.

Jeremiah 32:17 Ah, Sovereign LORD, you have made the heavens and the earth by your outstrecthed arm. Nothing is too hard for you.

my dearest raymond...i really feel the lost of not being able to talk with you now, the doctors said that you need more detailed care...so they put you into the ICU. You find it hard breathing on the evening 8th Jan 2010. They asked many many questions about you. Everytime I looked at our pictures..I couldn't help but cry to myself. and pray for God for comfort and peace. Sometimes i wondered is it because we had done wrong in somethings of our relationship. Or we've done something that is not God's will. =(

I also learn that you have a lot of people that is so concerned about you. You have a great set of family. Your mother side and your father's side...all came to visit you...in general hospital.
your church members came a few times. Even your boss nancy came to visit you so many times...and gave a love gift of money for your hospital fee. Now we know that she actually cares and concerned about your condition.

Right now I just want to think about good good things ...although i'm tempted to think that you are leaving soon...i wished i will not happen. =( i cant take it...if you do...so please God ...i begged you to give Raymond his life ....

Pray that you'll heal him. God you are the almighty God. Please hear your little child's prayer.
I miss and love raymond so much...i miss his endless phone calls he made.



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Rabbits again =)

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