A married friend

oh....their married, so end of the friendship?? Xd or just plain busy in their lives...
i just have make like not notice. Although it is difficult to get in contact. Finally there is a sms reply to the 1 month sms ago. And after replying, I do not see another reply.

How are they? Do they have children by now? It is just question mark until I meet them again. For now i'll continue to pray for their faith as always. May God keep them strong. I'm thankful for the returned sms though.


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My blessings of Bday.

How can I say thanks, for all the things you had done for me.

God you are a great God!!! you are so so awesome... you've given me the best birthday ever!!!~ I have a great suprise from you this morning....

You never stop giving me suprises in my life. I thought my birthday will be rather dull this year.. But it was the other way round =)

i'm content with the little little things you've given to me....especially my adik- adik =). God you really know how to creatively surpise your daugther =) Love you much....

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A Tribute to my Popo the late (Ho Soon Moi)

Today I came back from church. I checked on the plant that we planted together, just a month ago. The one you fertilized with your favourite pack of fertilizer. I was in awe. You really have green fingers. I tooked out my new camera and started taking one by one of your pictures of the garden.

While taking those pictures. I think more about you. Time has passed by so quickly. I remember those times that you needed me to help you put "meditated oil" on your body. Maybe that is why i love the smell of the oil so much. maybe it came from my grandma and aunty agnes.

I remembered those times at home with your friends that you did some tai chi and some dances. This few days we're all grieving. We saw your friends sending in your favourite roses. and your favourite colour. Showing respect. Even Yang Berhormat, drop by to pay his last respect on your furneral. I'm thankful that you've blessed so many people in different ways.

After Alice kuku's sharing. I flashback the things that you've done for the homeless. You gave them rice. I remember you're still driving on your perodua blue kancil, you fetch me to tuition and also bring me to give rice to the poor. I remembered that so much. You told me they are very pitiful.

You pitied even the maid at aunt agnes home. You really showed your love to your workers. You pampered them like your own. Sometimes we even envied ...how come you treated others better than us. But you were teaching us to be bold and help others indirectly. Trying very often to correct us. Thanking God so much for a granmum like you. No more friend chicken from popo =(





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Handmade specially for Gloria & Lucy.

i've completed the christmas pressie for my darling cousins in Toronto, Canada.

Gloria & Lucy Wu. Hope you love them.!!!!!

Love loads from Malaysia

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Cant wait for next year.

I'm certainly looking forward towards next year. There are so many earthly blessings to thank God for. i'm looking ahead. Family members and friends closed to me will be tying a knot. =D yay. I just love weddings. I cant wait for the planning to start...so most proly the big day would be on the 24th....yipppie.....=p

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Having fun with Roar

bidding farewell soon. as rabbit year would arrive.

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Canon in D !!! aka Odeyseus now miNe!!!

hop hop hop.....freely..in FuzziesULov3 garden!~

played around with it today.
my early birthday gift from my eldest sister. =D
cant wait to explore more.
maybe join nikonian or something. =p

I have a Canon DSLR!!!!~ after so long. I have my own personal DSLR!!!!~ after wishing for like 3 years!!!~

yay yay
my heart so happy!!!!!~ I received the gift this month on the recent Sunday (24th Oct 2010). Thank you so so much.......ta jie!!!!~ (love the quality of the pictures taken!~)


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Malacca few days trip.

Finally after so long, I went to Mond's resting place. For the very first time, I bought 2 bouqet of flowers for a love one. I cant remember me doing so for any other person that i know of. I teared a little, when I saw his handwritting on his cd's when I looked through them in his car.

I miss those moments. I still miss those time that we were together riding on that car. The difference now is that, Uncle Eng Ngee is diving and aunty Lian sitting beside him. I'm sitting the seat behind. I was on my own thinking about him, although Desiree and Aaron was in the back seat as well. Memories that I called it lovely, I can't get it back or wind it back to last time. The car was a place that we spent most of our time in. We talked, we enjoyed the "eye on malaysia" view, the place we prayed for the first time on our first date, the pillows that we put on our thigh when he is driving.

I cry a little, without whinning about anything. I was just a very silent atmosphere, nobody dared to ask why. I believe they understand how i felt. But nobody knows how to comfort, we're all griefing but not really showing it out.

I'm thankful that this trip was a fruitful one. Seems like both of our families had been receiving earthly blessings over blessings this few months. God is great, we just have to trust in Him. I'm thankful to Raymond's family, for their support and warm welcome back like a second home to me. I'm still not ready to unattached my ring from my finger. Maybe i just need more time to be able to do so. I do not understand why that i need to go through these in life. But i'm sure God knows what is best for me.

I'm already very content with whatever God has given to me. I'm thanking God for everything now.




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Meeting up with Suan & Norm...=p

Pondering about happiness. Recently I had a lot of earthly blessings that my Father God provided. Little little things became contentment...for the past few days. Desiree had passed her driving test. Whoa so another person in the family knows how to drive. Cant wait to ride on her car. But not this time round =p.

Recent Saturday, I went to the most awaited "multifilla" for the first time. So excited...I was like a kid, saying...."so nice" , "cute" or "wah I finally found this material". Norm drove us there with his 4 wheeled (thank you Norman!). =D. Wah really very fun leh. Words cant describe my contentment. I am was just plainly contented with what God had blessed me with. I found my treasures..through this weekend. =p

So that saturday went to Suan's church enjoyed the kids games. Played stacko with them. They consist of children from different age groups. So fun!~ I'm happy that I could see the kids smiling away. Although I could hear the chit chatter, but still I know that they felt content when they are playing there. That is another kind of happiness that one can have from another.

Sunday youth, we were discussing about storing treasures in heaven. Focusing on the kingdom of God. Kingdom of God can also be known as the people who are saved. We can continue to spread the good news to others, to build the "kingdom". Blessings others with what has blessed you with is really vital as well. =D Give freely, freely receive. =D.

Went out with Norm again on Sunday. The kind Norman drove us to the bus station. Then we took the 5pm bus. Met aunty Chan our neighbour at the bus station. Yay we have trasport from the mentakab bus station to our house. Another blessing God has given to us..last week.

blessings after blessings. =D dear father in heaven i'm getting greedy =D



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Aww....Fuzzies

Been so busy with my new weblog =D the commercial one. Click here to view my commercial blog.
I have completed another Panda keychain today but have not posted into the weblog yet. Today is salary day...yahooo....can langsing all my hutang hutang to Pat & Arale . I can't wait for my orders to reach me.

So far I've a few orders for Christmas pressies. Hope many more will drop by my blog and support me. Thanks Vinnie and Huikim for ordering... =D so thankful have friends to support for the start.

I'm still new to this pom pom making business. Hope everything will run smoothly, God willing. Ya today went Mass Gold to do monthly shopping with mum. Bought frebrezz to spray fuzzies hahaha so tht will have nice smell aroma. =p then bought makan makan, vitagen and yogurt drink.

Received stock from Stokis, whoa, use so much $$$ although just get salary at hand. Have to budget budget dy =( haih....let me eat bread everyday from today. ^.^ money out.....the more >.<. Ordered a lot of leggings to wear. Coz been wanting to buy them, but dint have the time to do so.

I'll be going to KL this Friday evening after work. Cant wait leh...=D to meet up with suan see..=D
I cant wait to go multifilia also. yay. I'm feeling very much content recently. You could see the way i blog, you can sense that right? =D i'm so thankful!~ Thank You father God.

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Talents...wow...

Some people is just extra talented... =D...i really looked up to someone i just taught making pom pom a few days ago. She mastered it quickly and her product came up to be even more creative than mine.. My heart felt so warm for her..

I'm happy and glad. Maybe this is the sense of feeling blessed when people whom you taught can continue to improvise and self learn the other skills. I'm blessed.

I've just started to pick up crochet again. I'm making those little penguin wings for my pom pom. It is fun to learn crochet when it is in a small portion.. it is liked erm little bit is easier to work on than bigger projects. I know you would agree with me.

My cousin will be coming over tomorrow to learn the pom pom. My youngest sister is interested in picking up this skill as well. Aw i'm so thankful that people is interested in learning it. I can build more skillful people to serve the lord in workshops in future.. It is just a dream, I'm not sure if it is God's will =D.

Cant wait to learn more different skills to improve on my fuzzies. =D By the way thank you for all the encouragement in MSN and in my blog as well. I'll keep working towards a much better product hahaha..pray for me la. Regards.



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Busy once in a Year...HaRi RaYa 2010

Songs that are familiar flash back into the radio. While we were younger, the sound of the music..the rhythm and the familiarity of the beat of Hari Raya, just tune in. Oh it is back again, it is Hari Raya, not more fasting month for the year. Customers from different places of Malaysia just came because it is their "balik kampung festival".

It is good to see happy faces of customers. Some weird customers and some nice customers. Just have to handle them tackfully. It is enjoyable to see appreciative faces more than sour faces that some give because they want to lower down the price.

Customers came in one after another for studio pictures. My legs began to ache after serving and standing for 5 hours without sitting down. Now my legs are resting on the bed, finally!~ It was indeed God's blessings to have good business..although it is not as good as the past year as many has already had their own home photographers for hari raya.

It is already September. Time passes so quickly, I'm happy for the state that i am in...but i'm still wanting to progress into a much better person...within. I'm thankful right now for my supportive family members and also my friends.

I cant wait to make more fuzzies as well. Those who are praying for me ...please continue to keep me in prayers. Prayerfully hope that tomorrow will be another joy filled day!~

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Kitties =D

these kittie is with a pin behind it. it'll cost RM10 for each kittie.
Kittie head will only cost RM8 each.

do give me some feedback. If you are interested in any of my craftwork...please comment and let me know...=D


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Cowie...Moo...my latest fuzzy

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Wireless

the craziness of having a wireless at home is that everybody can chat at the same time, use the same aircond and use different laptops. Thats the craze thing XD. We laughed among ourselves as siblings. yay we have wireless..
i know i'm crazy now..coz we finally have WiReless..and ta jie ..it is much faster than last time!~ yay!!!

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MIA

Long.....pause huh? =p
I'm not sure if anybody keep updated reading my blog. Do comment if you drop by. Maybe could say a "hi" or anything else. =)

MIA for a long time =p
But still surviving, God has been all I need.
What a year this year? Different things happened. And many people that I know just had their personal problems that I couldn’t state in here.
In my conclusion of these things happening, it is because the end times coming very near. Trying to be positive about these things, but the human nature in me is also pulling me downwards sometimes. I’m still letting God to help me pull myself back together; He is the only one that knows the numbers of my hair. So I’ll just have to leave my future into His hands.

Although sometimes in life, people may think it is depressing. But I still believe that in God’s timing and purpose God will slowly reveal the hidden plans. =D I just have to be still and be content with everything that He has given.

Besides being in life’s downhill, I still have blessings as well. My youngest sister finished her diploma and will be getting her Diploma Cert today. Yay!! Congratulations little sister, I’m very proud of you! Really look up to your confidence level and your gifts. Keep it up; I know you can do well in your degree in future as well. Hope you’ll enjoy your convocation today. Also hope that you love the watch that we gave you as a pressie =p.

And currently I’m back into making my pom-poms. Even though I’ve been pausing for like about 2 months, I could make at least a few, and progressing slowly. Had taught my cousins and enjoyed myself in Singapore in the recent trip. I’m thankful that I had the opportunity to spend time with my aunt, my cousins and my granmum. The little little things that I’m currently experiencing is making me feel more content each day. I’m really thankful about what God has held me through. I know life is tough, and I just need to toughen my faith a little. (At least I’m trying).

I’m learning to be like King David as well. Need to be genuine towards father in heaven.
The message in mandarin did spoke to me that Sunday when I’m in Singapore. I needed to give my worries to God and ask Him to help. Then move on in life.

I’ve been thinking about future, I was advised to rest a little while more. I just have to listen to people who love me and care for me in this point of time. I just have to take more time to recover in the dismiss. Maybe different people take things differently. =) I’m much better now. Thank you father God.

Thank you for dropping by. Please let me know if you need any help in making pom-poms. i'll try my best to help =).




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travelling home.

Today I was reading the life testimony of a person by the name of peter and how his family go through the pain and hardship with him. His gfriend's sister's letter speaks a lot to my soul. I like the sharing of the song that she put up in tht book. this song is
by Frank E. Graeff, 1901

Does Jesus care when my heart is pained
Too deeply for mirth or song,
As the burdens press, and the cares distress,
And the way grows weary and long?

Refrain:
Oh, yes, He cares, I know He cares,
His heart is touched with my grief;
When the days are weary, the long nights dreary,
I know my Savior cares.

Does Jesus care when my way is dark
With a nameless dread and fear?
As the daylight fades into deep night shades,
Does He care enough to be near?

Does Jesus care when I’ve tried and failed
To resist some temptation strong;
When for my deep grief there is no relief,
Though my tears flow all the night long?

Does Jesus care when I’ve said “goodbye”
To the dearest on earth to me,
And my sad heart aches till it nearly breaks—
Is it aught to Him? Does He see?
_______________________________________________

so jesus does care. This month is already the 3rd month from Raymond's passing. I'm still trying to let go, things seems easy to be said than done. i know wht is right to do, but I just continue doing things tht sometimes i cant control. Dear Lord please help.


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God had not promised (in the tune of "this is my story")

this song was just in time for me. I thank God for the precious moments God had given to me...to encouragement through bro and sis in christ last night. Prayer meeting was soothing to the soul, mind and spirit to continue to walk towards God's leading and direction.

i'm not so afraid now, with a little step of faith leap. May the Lord guide and help me not to think so much about the past but move foward. Lovely song, I would like to share. In the tune of "this is my story".

God has not promised
Skies always blue,
Flower-strewn pathways
All our lives thro’;
God has not promised
Sun without rain,
Joy without sorrow,
Peace without pain.

God has not promised
We shall not know
Toil and temptation,
Trouble and woe;
He has not told us
We shall not bear
Many a burden,
Many a care.

But God has promised
Strength for the day,
Rest for the laborer,
Light for the way,
Grace for the trials,
Help from above,
Unfailing sympathy,
Undying love.

by Annie Johnson Flint

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Solo by Iyaz

Samuel was listening to his favourite songs...then i was listening to this XD
caught my attention in the moment. Although i was feeling a little like that..right now..i just believe God will just pull me through in His time.


Intro -
I said I dont want to walk this earth
If I gotta do it solo

Verse 1 -
See gyal we used to be a team
Running the streets (yeah)
We was living out our dream, ohh
You used to be my rider
I was your provider
Now we separated in to two

Pre-Chorus -
Oh and baby you left and sailed away alone (Yeah, alone)
And now you got me trapped up on this island
Where noway to get home

Chorus -
And I dont wanna go, go
I dont wanna go, girl
I dont wanna it, no no
I dont wanna it, down low
I dont want to walk this earth
If I gotta do it solo (solo)

Chorus 2 -
Cuz I was so high
And I dont wanna walk around alone,(solo)
I said I dont want to walk this earth
If I gotta do it solo (solo, solo)

Verse 2 -
You was the beat onto my top line
Put us together
And you affi 'it the rewind
See, you give me a purpose
Now I'm getting nervous
That my heart will never sing again
Oh, when we was burning up the airways
They know us from the Virgin Islands to the U.K.
See, we was on the way to the platinum and gold
Never thought that you'd go , but you did yeah
Yeah, You did

Pre-Chorus
Oh and baby you left and sailed away alone (Yeah, alone)
And now you got me trapped up on this island
Where noway to get home

Chorus
And I dont wanna go, go
I dont wanna go, go
I dont wanna go, no
I dont wanna it, no
I dont want to walk this earth
If I gotta do it solo (solo)


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Ben

just humming the tune of "ben"
sounds meaningful...especially when it comes to missing someone so much.

Ben, the two of us need look no more
We both found what we were looking for
With a friend to call my own
I'll never be alone
And you, my friend, will see
You've got a friend in me
(you've got a friend in me)

Ben, you're always running here and there
You feel you're not wanted anywhere
If you ever look behind
And don't like what you find
There's one thing you should know
You've got a place to go
(you've got a place to go)

I used to say "I" and "me"
Now it's "us", now it's "we"
I used to say "I" and "me"
Now it's "us", now it's "we"
Ben, most people would turn you away
I don't listen to a word they say
They don't see you as I do
I wish they would try to
I'm sure they'd think again
If they had a friend like Ben
(a friend) Like Ben
(like Ben) Like Ben



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=) really like my handmade things

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Am I walking towards the Lord's plans?

sometimes i wondered if i'm making a corrrect decision or am i just mearly following what my heart wants?

recently i've been working on a lot of craft. Be it clay or wool. Sometimes i still sense the loneliness of losing someone so special in my life. Yet I'm content with whatever state I am. I do fail most of my time. Seems like i'm easily agitated with little little things.

Feelings of hurt still comes and go. People near me just come and go. I believe that do matter what i'm facing now. The Lord knows them all. And I'll just have to lift it up to Him. Be it now or What is next, I'll still have to make decisions and face more decisions.

I havent been blogging many days, I just dont find something nice enough to blog out. =D.
I havent been reading others blogs as well =P.


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More fuzzies including latest little chick =p

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Penguins for friends =P Bridget, Chacha & Sueaan

green for SueAnn

blue for chacha

pink for Bridget =)

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Cow Mooie =)-for Sharon.

cant wait to complete it =)

havent put the ribbons around it..and also the bells =P

hope you like it sharon!!~

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Starting to make fuzzy wozzy again!!~

what do you think of these rabbits??
tee hee...these are for my aunt angie...she envied my other aunt...when i gave them one... She asked for 2 pairs . >.< to be fair to her..i made these for her coming birthday..happy advance birthday!!~
Gods blessings be upon you.

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1 Cor 13:4-7 (try to replace the word Love with your own name.)

Was reading A Love Worth Giving by Max Lucado.

He encouraged readers to follow the Luke 7:47 principle. To receive Love first then Love second.

Read 1 Cor 13:4-7

Love is patient, Love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no records of wrongs. Love does not delight in evilbut rejoices in the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

Let me know what you think after you replace the word Love, with your own name. It'll make a difference.

Then the next time replace it with "Jesus". Get the whole picture?

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"Life Goes on" for forgivenbabe

well ya...life just have to go on =)...no matter how much i miss raymond right now.
I'm still trying my best to get as many pictures to put it into a DVD form.

I'm still alright physhically and emotionally ...although sometimes i still have little dissapointed in recent things. I'll be starting the photobook again by Saturday night. I cant wait for my younger sister to come back home..to have a clearance in my room...it has been messy for ages now >.< so much photos!!!~ i shouldnt have print so many of them the last time. I'm just a photo person. I learnt a lesson..just print a few best shots. =) for memory the rest leave as soft copy =P.

I have plans with friends on march. In the middle of march...seems to have a lot of things at hand that i want to do. It is if our Lord allows me to do what I have planned...I'll be glad to do it =).

I cant wait to meet up with Joy and Shanie. I havent met them in ages. I was like 5-6 years back. Oops i just sound so old now. =P just remb the college years @ TARC and the memories...
back in CF.

There are so many places that i planned to travel on my own...with anybody at all...

(1) Sabah & Sarawak
(2) Brunei
(3) Korea
(4) Pulau Redang / Perhentian

want to do:
(1) bugee jumping >.< (anyone want to come along)


i'll be happy if there are friends planning to go as well...in few years time...not this year...just too pack with things...i've taken too many days off =p

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What i shared last Friday...wake service (5th feb 2010)

We're only 10 months together, until sickness strike. We're only 2 weeks engaged, 3rd week. Raymond had to ask me to remove our ring from his finger. 14th feb 2010 will be our 1st year courting.

He was a person with little words to many, but to me he has so much to share. We share about almost everything under the sun. From work, family and church activities and doctrines. I remembered those times we needed to talk so many hours over the phone. So many smses we send to each other that in your 1st month together, our mobile bill increased and we needed to change our phone plan. (me as a sub-line)

Like my eldest sis say in her blog, Raymond was a man after God's heart. Although he do have his human weaknesses. Having a chance to know him and have a closer relationship with him for 10 months was indeed blessings from God.

Although both me and Raymond do have many ups and downs, tears and sometimes conflicts (conflicting ideas) but we everytime will settle it by sharing it out and praying everynight before we go to bed.

I'm very glad that we had chances to learn the word of God together over the phone. It was indeed encouraging to learn with one another especially when our prayers were answered. (when we pray for something)

There was one time in our 4th month, I began to feel tired talking over the phone, started complaining, not knowing that he is leaving so soon. But Raymond insist that we must at least pray before we slept. Every morning he'll wake me up for prayers. Sometimes he'll share a verse or two before we head off for work. This was how firm he was and it encourages me now.

Our theme verse for our relationship Psalms 118:8
" It is better to trust in the Lord than to put confidence in man".

The song that God showed me that he is the one (drawed us closer)
"Burdens are lifted at calvary"

One of his favourite hymns. (he has also love other hymns, this is one of his fav)
"It is well, with my soul"

I'll miss those times we sung hymns and praises over the phone. We grew even more to the extend that we only listen to christian songs and music when we're courting. (we learn from I kissed dating goodbye, Boy meets girl by Joshua Harris). I could say we do not have any pop song favourites, that i could recall now. It was indeed a blessing to know someone who has the same mind for the lord.

You all might have thought about how much I could withstand and be by his side. I had fears as well, when i accompanied him in the hospital.

"prefect love of God just cast out the fear and gave me JOY."

Initially I couldn't take it, I'm full of dissapointment, fearing that he'll leave. I questined, why God?

God gave me the answer,

1 Cor 2:9

"But it is written:
Eyes has not seen, nor ear heard,
Nor have entered into the heart of man
The things which God has prepared
for those who love him."

God also gave me the assurance that "nothing is too hard for the Lord". that was how personal the encounter was with our Lord.

As days passes, Raymond's condition weakens, my faith on God's healing hand was still there. I'm still clinging to God's miracle at the same time, thinking that God might take him home.

I do not know why God decided to take Raymond home. Especially when there are so many things that we planned to do together. That I'll just leave to father God. Raymond & I love the Lord. God will and is a faithful God until the end. Now I realised God had been moving in our lives and speaking through His word past 10 months.

Dear Raymond's family,
thank you for dropping by everytime when he is still hospitalized. Although I'm his fiancee, I feel the same, I tear the same, I fear the same, but I still want to send my heartfelt condolences.

Dear MGC,
thank you for the love extended to the family, during the time of Raymond's hospitalization until now. And for the prayers as well.

Dear bro and sis in the Lord,
thank you for all the prayer support from all churches. It was certainly a blessing to know so many had cared and gave concern to us. I'm sure that is how it kept us strong to go through this together with the Lord.

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Today is not any other day.

Today when I wake up..

I do not have someone to ring me to wake up anymore,
I do not have the closeness of someone sharing the bible with me or singing with me anymore over the phone.
I do not have someone chatting for hours over the internet during working time anymore.
I do not have someone letting me know, he misses my voice
I do not have someone to share with me his problems anymore. (miss this a lot)
I do not have someone so close to share prayer request anymore.
I will not have the blessing to have children with darling Raymond See anymore.
I will not get a chance to marry darling Raymond See anymore.
The plans that we planned over the phone, might be just humanly plans. Through this I came to learn that not everything in life that we plan, is God's plan.
I learn also that God is always loving, always faithful and always real in our life.
I learn to be more prayerful and remain faithful to His word.
His word are so sweet, remembering biblical songs with verses is indeed really helpful during this time.
Steve Green's children song was one of those albums that certainly encoraged me...because it helps me a lot in meditating the word of God..
I still feel the loss of not getting a chance anymore to call, text or meeting you anymore here on earth.
We're just pligrims. Reminds me of pligrim progress. I'll always remember you as my first boyfriend and fiance. I love you Mond..


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The day Mond went home to Father God (6pm 2-2-2010)

speechless right now..
but also at the same time...feels that mond is in a better place.
will take some time to write things..
not now...
coz right now the mind is blank.
just take time...

just keep raymond's family especially in close prayers at this point of time.

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truth & tidings

A sister in christ...send me this article to read. It was indeed an encorangement to read about mary and how she have to continue to do what God wants although others around might think differently about her.

After reading back, I felt the contentment of having so many different elizabeth in my life, spiritual sisters and kept me equiped during times like this. maybe doing it directly through concern and prayers or indirectly through prayers and sending in comments.

It might be those who has gone through the same hardship few years back. It could also be those who are going through it right now. having some family members that is still struggling to survive. This time when i'm in trying to help raymond recover. I realize how important it is to be alive sometimes..knowing that someone is just wanting to live on...but is suffering to suvive...yet many are planning to commit suicide..not knowing their lives are so precious to people who needed it.

In life, we tend to take for granted, we continue living like a nobody's line. We take for granted God's grace for us. We take for granted of the things we eat. We take for granted about others people's care for us. We pin point people's faults instead of respecting their decision or helping them when you know they are in a wrong direction. We do not try to help, instead making more dilusion in whatever matter or step we take.

There are too many illisions in life that would just cause pain and suffering to others, we just do not know. We thought that it'll just be awhile and people will forget and continue on. But we're all wrong. Past experience might give them permanent fears that are not from God. unless they do rely on the same God and leave everything..all their fears and worries to God. To give God all the glory.


http://www.truthandtidings.com/issues/2010/t20100204.php

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God will take care (James 1:12)

"Blessed is the man that endureth temptation : for when he is tried, he shalt receive the crown of life, which the lord hath promised to them that love him." james 1:12

Raymond is now having bleeding in the nose, trakea and mouth. I'm not sure of why..and his palatte count is too low for medication. It's so difficult to see that he can surive...but i still believe that a miracle can happen if God allows Raymond to be well. But i thank god for this verse.

Daniel (his elder bro) told me he'll be taking care of raymond tonight. I'm back home to pahang at the moment. Please pray for the family members that will be taking care of him.

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John Hoo...a testimony..of God's healing hand

http://john-hoo.blogspot.com/

my friend let me know abt John Hoo...through his testimony...does encourage me on to trust in God that he will take care of Raymond. Just as he has done to John Hoo. =)


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Dr.s Said -never progressing

Abraham, who, contrary to hope, in hope believed, so that he became the father of many nations, according to what was spoken, "So shall your descendants be." And not being weak in faith, he did not consider his own body, already dead (since he was about a hundred years old), and the deadness of Sarah's womb. He did not waver at the promise of God through unbelief, but was strengthened in faith, giving glory to God, and being fully convinced that what He had promised He was also able to perform.

Romans 4:18-21 (New King James Version)

Wht? 100 % brain damage equals brain dead. It was hard...I questioned the dr. " will he still recover from it?" if it is brain dead equals there will be no recovery. No other medication that we can feed him with it the brain is not moving. We prayed hard...

I'm just left dumb folded, couldnt just talk for awhile. I believe God just answered our very own prayer during that time to sustain Raymond. Another dr. checked him at 6pm and told me that his brain function 60% off the other 40% still there. I do believe in miracles that God will still can make it happen at no matter what state. God will make a way, where there seems to be no way.

I kept asking the dr. how come he still can react with tears and when they are feeding him..i still can see him moving. He told me he cant explain coz he just isnt there to see it. He was tearing i told him...is it his own reflect or it is just a body reflect. Dr cant explain that.

How come the blood pressure and his heart beat is better yesterday? Dr say...it is always the brain cant function that little by little it'll shut the heart and then...that is the end of it..When i heard that .i cant tear at all at that moment.

I'm just very troubled that moment...then i prayed with raymond in thankfulness that God still give him a 40% to recover. I believe that 40% will be better...rather than detoriating. I hope humanly that he'll recover...quickly by my valentine...it'll be our 1 year together. Neither that i know that things like these would happen. If I know i would have spend more time with him.

I really thank God we did went to Singapore together end of last year. We even promise Aunty Ann that we'll be going this Dec again. I hope he'll be awaked then. God allows it...it'll be a great blessing....please pray hard for many of us...we find it really hard to believe that God want to cure him sometimes....God please help my unbelieve....=( . God i pray that you'll heal him....raymond is your precious one...he'll be the person that will share to everyone about your blessing in his life. I came to realize...human plans will not always be done. Sometimes life is at stake...since we're still in earth...I agree that we do have earthly blessings from God...but...as we focus on the creator God. God have it more over in His home. And i trust that all of us have to continue to fight this battle in the Lord...

He is the only one that knows every thing. =) Keep praying for raymond. His CT scan is out today. Pray that the dr.s know how to help him. Thank you for updating yourself by reading my blog. GBU



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GH trasfered to High defination Ward

Yesterday doctors call uncle eng ngee to let him know the trasfer and they transfered raymond to a ward in the morning. So on the 26th i reached Malacca and God just allowed me to be in a situation to see changes in raymond.

I believe God just know everything that we need. God just put everything in place for me and raymond and also his family. Everything seems in time. The time when i met raymond he became better, i just thank God that he is progessing. His heartbeat is better this week. 64- 66 normal heartbeat is usually 70-80. I heard his blood pressure drop to 98 for normal person suppose to be 110 bp. Yesterday i was so thankful that he had progessed to 111/65 bp.

I heard from the doctor, his eyes pupil is back to normal. Today dr.s will be talking with uncle see again. So far he is still using a machine to support his oxygen (vendilator). I'll be going back tonight to help to care for raymond. Will try to keep this updated tomorrow if i can.

Thank you so much for reading especially those who pray along and give messages of scriptures as well as word of encouragement to me. I believe that it had really been a blessing to know so many bros and sisters. (especially sisters that read my blog and wrote a comment) so thoughtful of you to do so.

Ya i remember crying while singing each sunday asking God for a miracle in Raymond's case..missing him so much...during worship. and singing and meditating on God's word. It is indeed a great blessing being his partner when he is still healthy... God will in His time heal our dear raymond completely, but it just take patience and complete trust in the family =). (thanks Irene)

"Casandra, I came to know about Raymond when I dropped by MGC early January 2010 when we were down in Malacca to check out a place for camp. I was seated a row behind you and I couldnt figured out why you kept tear-ing until Uncle Tiong prayed and shared about Raymond. Just want to let you know as well that my church is also praying for Raymond and we have him on our prayer list every week and constant updates from Ngee Zheng. NZ was with us for a couple of years before he went overseas. I am encouraged to hear some good reports on him, about him shedding tears. God has a reason for all and it's my prayer too that you keep strong. God works for the good of those who love Him. -Irene-"

I pray and believe that AuntyLian and uncle engngee is growing better in the Lord. Aunty Lian ( raymond's mum) is lead to pray together with the help of uncle engngee. tht is a very good decision and i'm very please that they are trying with their whole best to learn to leave it to the Lord for peace and comfort. I believe that the Lord would be much please that us humans =).

As for me, I'll be going back this coming saturday and sunday. Needed to be back home to work. It'll be much better for me to take a time off...working as well as the next time helping to take turns to care for raymond when he is recovering. God will take care of things. God will lead. Will just leave everything to God that this point of time.

Special prayers...do pray for those family members that are taking care of raymond that they'll not fall sick while taking care of him. Coz we need prayer support. I'm having little sore throat and slight headache yesterday. Do pray for complete recovery.

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Raymond's eyes teared

we know Raymond can listen...really hope that he'll recover in speed. =( i cant wait for his recovery.. But i just thank God that he is still keeping him. may our lord God continue to answer our needs at this point of time.

I haven't meet him for a week plus. Will he be thinking about me right now...? i Hope that God will give him the comfort and peace during this point of time. and also the strenght to continue living for Him.

Daniel told me that he just went to meet Raymond this morning with Pastor Samuel. When Pastor Sam is praying, Raymond did teared. Even when Aunty Lian ( his mom) talking with Raymond...they saw tears in his eyes. I'm thankful that Raymond is responding with tears. At least we know he is responding.

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From our future Ring bearer & Flower Girls

this is a card from Zhien

could see this 5 year old boy...growing into a smart boy.

he really misses you.

this is the front page of the card

believing that God will answer our little siblings prayers. Get well soon Raymond. We're all praying for you.

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The need to move to KL General Hospital (ICU)

Dr.s told Uncle See that Raymond needs to move to KL GHospital because Raymond might need to go through Biopsy for the brain. Please keep Raymond and the doctors in prayers..so that Raymond will be able to be transfered ASAP with a place vacant for him to be medicated and giving a accurate attention to.

KL GHospital ICU will be one of the best for Raymond.But it'll also be a risk due to his unstable health condition that Raymond is having right now. It is very difficult to transfer a patient that is already almost near to coma. I'm not so sure if he is in a coma state now.

But according to Uncle See, Raymond is having a "2nd Stage" coma. Do not know if the Dr.s told Uncle See. But Raymond's health condition is not good. Please do pray hard for Raymond, that he'll get well and wake up soon =(. Only God understands the details of his health that no man will understand.

thanks for dropping by to know more abt Raymond's condition as well as praying for him.



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heartbeat still slow

Heartbeating still slow. Was on the phone with uncle see to ask about raymond's condition. His condition is much weaker than last week when i'm still there. Now not even tears coming down from his eyes. The last time I met him before I left on Sunday, he was much better. His eyes are still partially opened. We still could see him closing his eyes. =(

Our only hope is on the Lord...=(

keep praying that his heartbeat will be normal. The medication started, dr.s said, it'll take 4 days to show if the medication is effective. We'll have to wait and see...praying for a miracle. =( May our Lord God preserve your health dearest Raymond. I pray real hard and with my heart =(.

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Lord my strength and my redeemer

Psalms 19:14
Let the words of my mouth ,and the meditation of my heart,
be acceptable in thy sight, O LORD my strength and my
redeemer.

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It is in the valleys I grow.

an aunt from TGC gave me this link today. I felt encouraged and wanted to share with everyone that is going through hardship as a christian.

http://llerrahmusic.com/viewcard.php?code=102467


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Swelling in the brain

Last night doctors informed his heart beat became slower. Dr.s haven't dicover why is this happening to Raymond. What virus is it? etc etc but Raymond's condition is still unstable and he is not awake until now.

PTL our Lord God had answered our prayers, Uncle See managed to make an appointment today to meet up with neurologist Dr. Udaman. CT scan shows Raymond has a swell in the brain. Dr. Udaman told Uncle Engngee and Raymond's aunt (Aunt Dolly) that they'll be trying a 2 new medication for Raymond. Pray that the vaccination will fit effectively without any side effects on Raymond's body. (1) to reduce brain swelling and (2) for treatment.



Pray for the doctors and nurses that is trying their best in helping Raymond's state as well. Pray that the Lord will give them the ability to think about solution for Raymond's sickness.


Please do continue to pray for Raymond as he is both dear to my family and his family. and his other friends. Pray for God's miraculous healing upon him. Really really miss Raymond =(.

Again I just have to believe that the Lord controls everything. He'll continue to help us through this time. He is the only pillar of strength to many of us, during this point of time. GOD will be Raymond's healer. GOD the Lord of Moses and Abram will be our strength and only HOPE...this we have to TRUST. There is no other way.

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Raymond's post on his blog

http://rayseemylittleworld.blogspot.com/

it is still comforting reading his blog today. to know that he is so close with the Lord. =)

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Lord you know it all.

1 cor 2:9

But it is written, " eye had not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man, the things which God had prepared for them that love Him"

God has been with us. Speaking to us in His own ways through songs and hymns and scriptures each day to keep us refreshed and assured about His presence...in Raymond's life..and ours.

Just have to trust and have faith that everything will be well.


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Back home & start working.

Was reading the morning devotion today. Was assured about God's love for everyone of us. As well as towards Raymond.

The verse was taken from Romans 8:38-39

And the song "Such Love" just came into meditation.

I'm back @ Temerloh at the moment to work and to keep my mind working as well as for a little rest. Will try my best to update everyone. But if you can't get the updates from my blog. Please do drop by MGC youth prayer blog for more details about Raymond's condition. http://mgcboleh.blogspot.com/

Really appreciate everyone's prayers from everywhere.
Just would like to let everyone know that the Lord will do what is best for Raymond. We just have to put faith, hope and trust in Him our Lord God the creator of the universe.

The latest that i know is Dr. Udaman the only Neurologist is still not available to talk with uncle see for futher information about Raymond's brain condition. This we have to really pray that the Dr.s will take notice about our eagerness to know about Raymond. Very difficult to meet with any doctors...this happens so frequently. Uncle See have to wait so many hours for the doctors to have the availability to meet up.

We thought they say we can meet Dr. Udaman today. But still can't more than a week in ICU...still havent meet Dr. Udaman the neurologist. Pray hard.!!~
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With Christ in the vessel

With christ in the vessel, we can smile at the storm. I went to your granaunt's place last night, I realized the peace and comfort that comes from the Lord. I wasn't bitter, none of us were...not even your mum. (thank God)

The brain scan shows negative again. They still can't find out what sickness you were having up until now. I feel with you and your family, but i believe with God's strenght we could continue to go on living together to fight whatever sickness that you are going through, together with you. Ta ge ( Daniel) ask us, how is your comdition, he was suprised to see us smiling still although your state is still weak. thank God for the peace and the prayers for many christian friends and family.

Aunty Ann and Aunty Dolly is specially concern, I could see them asking over the phone about your condition. Your aunty Kim and aunty ah fah as well. I remember Ah yee ( aunty mary) crying when Aunty Ann prayed with us last saturday. Everyone is waiting to see God's miracle in your life. dear Raymond, I believe that the Lord will be good to grant us this wish, in His time.

With Christ in the vessel we can smile at the storm. miss you so much dearest Raymond.


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Brain Scan & Second Lumber Puncture

I haven't visit him yet. I heard from his dad that the doctors did a brain scan in the morning. Even if the brain scan is positive or negative, raymond might need to go through a second lumber puncture. Doctors still can't find the virus or the main part of the brain that is infected.

So we just all need to stay strong in the Lord and continue to pray to the Lord that the doctors will have to wisdom. and also that the doctors will get to find out why this happened to raymond.
he is getting weaker each day we see him. Just need prayer for God's miraculous healing power.

I Am The God That Healeth lyrics

Don Moen

Lyrics:

I am the God that Healeth thee I am the Lord Your healer I sent My word And I healed your disease I am the Lord Your healer You are the God that Healeth me You are the Lord My healer You sent Your word And You healed my disease You are the Lord My healer You sent Your word And You healed My disease You are the Lord My healer You sent Your word And You healed My disease You are the Lord My healer

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Viral Encephalitis (it might be)

I saw him today @ the ICU at the same time meeting up with one of his ICU doctors. She told us about his condition. Initially we thought that they moved him to a 4 person room because his health condition is much better, but she say he hadn't progress.

She just told us his limbs cant be moved. He'll be given phisiotherapy. And he still couldn't breath on his own. If he still can't breath in another 4 days...they'll need to put a hole in his throat so that he can breath better and more care can be taken. Whatever things that the doctors say at this moment of time seems negative now but I still believe in miracles. I will never give up believing my dearest will be well.. =)

Because He lives, I could face tomorrow,
Because He lives, all fear is gone.
Because I know, I know He holds the future,
And empty grave is there to prove my saviour lives.

http://www.betterhealth.vic.gov.au/bhcv2/bhcarticles.nsf/pages/Viral_encephalitis
http://www.pahlawan.com.my/voice/vecrisis.shtml
http://kidshealth.org/parent/infections/bacterial_viral/encephalitis.html#
http://www.pdrhealth.com/disease/disease-mono.aspx?contentFileName=BHG01ID01.xml&contentName=Viral+Encephalitis&contentId=159

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Raymond's Church friends encouragement

Yesterday I went to Malacca Gospel Chapel for worship. I could feel the sense of being belong to our Father in heaven. I know for sure God is out there and in our presence to listen to His little child cries. I remember that when I was singing songs of praise to our Lord God, I was thinking about you. The first time we went worship together @ mgc, I remembered I was so proud of you, leading the singing, sharing a little verse or two, with your own simple and not so confident way =), but i appreciate it and believed that God was too. I couldnt help but crying all out to God.

I'm so thankful to God in so many things. Thankful that God has bring me so in time for everything, i'm so glad. He comforted me with people I meet in church. The songs that we sing to Him. I'm so touched by His presence and His people. They came from everywhere. This week KL assembly was visiting MGC for a short retreat to find a campsite for their church. The church gave you another love gift of money, in which could cover most of your medical fee and our transportation. I'm so thankful. I sms uncle rodney and uncle kian boon this , "God loves a cheeerful giver" and had ask them to pass it around in the sms.

As for cafeteria@ church, I was very blessed to get encouraged and feel the sympatize they gave to us. One aunty came and hug me. Sinyee...the girl that just got engaged around the same time as us was there to talk over a cup of tea. And we were all talking about melissa's finger that has seems to be fractured during games @ the recent camp. I smsed Sinyee that i appreciate it yesterday and that "a joyful heart is a good medicine, and a broken spirit dries up the bones." because me and aaron still feel the peace and joy that comes from God, that we just willingly share and also laugh freely. =) (this i thank God, I believe you too thank God).

It was indeed God's blessing when I saw you reacting last afternoon, eyes opening and fingers moving a little bit. Although you wanted to talk so much, but you couldn't. I sympathise with you, at the same time was so happy that you recovered bit by bit.

I could see that you recovered from the time you leave that terrible Pantai hospital that overdose you and cost you more pain. God really had made us shift hospitals..intitially we thought we dint have enough money to cover the cost for your medical fee...so your dad decided that you change hospital, it wasn't because we feel that it gave you bad treatment but God just knew. Now I could see you in better care and you rested more than you were in pantai hospital. I felt more assured that you we left in the ICU care. 24 hours@ General Hospital. They are more careful with things...this is what i'm thankful for. ( thank you God)

Yesterday, aunty waiying came to pray for you. (aunty seoknging's friend) She came all the way just to pray...and then leave. I prayed for you two times, in the same time slot ( afternoon slot) yesterday. letting the both of us know that what in future when you recovers we'll continue to praise the Lord and give Him the glory and honour and praise. because He is powerful.

Jesus shall take the highest honour
Jesus shall take the highest praise
Let all earth join heaven in exalting
The Name which is above all other names
Let's bow the knee in humble adoration
For at His name every knee must bow
Let every tongue confess He is Christ, God's only Son
Sovereign Lord, we give You glory now

For all honour and blessing and power
Belongs to You, belongs to You
All honour and blessing and power
Belongs to You, belongs to You
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of the living God

this song was shared by Darel yesterday during worship. I sung to you when you were already awake. With thankful hearts after we all met you...we were singing in the car...that is the first time I sense the joy and the contentment about your condition. =) maybe i'm already taking it as, God will heal you in His time. I can't wait for you to read these that I've been writing here.
But I did told you to take your time to rest until you recover. =) Take your time to recover. I can't wait raymond!! miss your voice.



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Hoped you recovered sooner (30th Dec 2009)

When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

here are no details in life that is too small for God to handle. Neither are there problems too big that his strong arms cannot uphold and save you. Jeremiah 32:17 Ah, Sovereign LORD, you have made the heavens and the earth by your outstrecthed arm. Nothing is too hard for you.

from the 30th Dec 2009, I was thinking that you were just having a normal fever that need to be meditated by the professionals. When your condition weakeness. I went down all the way to malacca just to give a helping hand with the heart of never knowing that your condition would worsened.

I went down on the 3rd of Jan 2010. I was just quite contented that you were quite well then. Although body temperature states that your fever was as high as 39 then slowly went down to 37. (I feel regretful now for the things i've scolded you about thinking about others. You weren't an easy patient to take care. Although i just started taking care of you that night.) Your hands are already weak that time. You needed me to feed you a bread the first thing when i reached pantai malacca. That time i wasn't aware that you were slowly feeling very weaked in health.
the whole night you were letting me know that you are cold... i remembered seeing you shivering since i met you on the 3rd.

The hospital doctors realized that you could not urine like normal, so decided to do the tube one. and your fever recovered completely. I was thanking God. but then your condition worsened..when you started to have hiccups. I was so worried. You go through so much more than i could imagined =(. I feel for you. Because i know how difficult is it for you. To see yourself in this condition. You were the person who told me...you are very afraid of needles and hospitals.
You have a fear there. They take your blood nearly everyday. Until today in the general hospital they still need to test the blood to find out why is the sickness weakening the body.

I learned to be strong these past few days taking the night shift just to be with you. I remb the time when they transfered you to general hospital, malacca. The first night you were very scary. I was the first time in my life, that i have to go through this together with someone i really love and cared for, that will be part of my life in future. I was really afraid at the same time i was worried for you...

I believe that the Lord was good to me to be able to see you before you health condition gets worsened. I even get to hug you a lot of times...the day before when you still can walk and talk like normal. Doctors still do not know why your body weakeness. ( that i thanked God). I just know that God is working inside somehow...I would have been in RBS mission trip this year. Now I get a clearer picture of things, I wasn't available for RBS 2010 because i have other things to attend to. a BIGGER mission, to take care of you and to minister to the rest of the non-christians in our family. ( remb that time tht i was down because i dint know why i'm not allowed to be in rbs this year?) now i know...everything is under God's control...He knew that things will turn out this way. He gave me the time to take care of you.

God is so wonderful isn't He?( Lord we both thank you.)
on the 4th jan, you weren't allowed to walk...but you were very sad...that i could see...you dint want to believe you dint have the strength to do so. You were just adjusting to the outcome. I'm worried for you...at the same time i was very angry for myself...because I treated you terribly the day before. I was just taken aback...this is one of the biggest test that i ever had with you...i'm glad that you are still praying for me yesterday. I thank God that you are still in the Lord. I'm thankful dear raymond...i really wished that you can get better.

But it seems that God still continue to allow things that we thought we couldn't handle to happen.

1 cor 10:13
New International Version (©1984)
No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.

Your sickness have made me draw much closer ties with your parents, your family members and my family members. (this is what i cant wait to let you feel the way it is right now) If you are awake now and recovered and sitting next to me...i believe that you'll be so happy that you future wife is in good terms with your family. =) ) My dearest ...i couldn't wait for your recovery..there are so many things that I havent do with you..., we just had our engagement not long ago. I couldnt help it but to cry..when the doctors say...maybe something wrong with your brain...i pray and hope it isn't.

Everyday is worry some to take care of you...but i've learnt to be a bolder person for you. Learning to take notice...the detailed way to take good care of you can make sure you are resting properly. I was learning to be a very independent person. And to decide for you as well.

I learn to be concerned about others as well. Especially those laying down on the hospital bed. and those who are looking after them.. i sympathize with them and their condition. I thought i cannot handle my feelings. But i've learnt more about myself...i became stronger when i read the scriptures yesterday when I reach home after the night shift.

Jeremiah 32:17 Ah, Sovereign LORD, you have made the heavens and the earth by your outstrecthed arm. Nothing is too hard for you.

my dearest raymond...i really feel the lost of not being able to talk with you now, the doctors said that you need more detailed care...so they put you into the ICU. You find it hard breathing on the evening 8th Jan 2010. They asked many many questions about you. Everytime I looked at our pictures..I couldn't help but cry to myself. and pray for God for comfort and peace. Sometimes i wondered is it because we had done wrong in somethings of our relationship. Or we've done something that is not God's will. =(

I also learn that you have a lot of people that is so concerned about you. You have a great set of family. Your mother side and your father's side...all came to visit you...in general hospital.
your church members came a few times. Even your boss nancy came to visit you so many times...and gave a love gift of money for your hospital fee. Now we know that she actually cares and concerned about your condition.

Right now I just want to think about good good things ...although i'm tempted to think that you are leaving soon...i wished i will not happen. =( i cant take it...if you do...so please God ...i begged you to give Raymond his life ....

Pray that you'll heal him. God you are the almighty God. Please hear your little child's prayer.
I miss and love raymond so much...i miss his endless phone calls he made.



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Rabbits again =)

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